back to indexKat Emrick on Surviving Human Trafficking, Finding Forgiveness, and Conspiracy vs. Reality
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- Hi, welcome back to another episode of Curious Mike. 00:00:17.000 |
You know, this topic is something that I believe 00:00:25.640 |
So I appreciate your bravery, like, and everything, 00:00:27.740 |
and sharing your story, and being vulnerable. 00:00:30.700 |
So why don't we start, like, early childhood. 00:00:33.240 |
Like, what was your first memories growing up? 00:00:42.600 |
My dad wasn't around much, so I think that's sort of 00:00:45.880 |
what led me to what we're going to speak about. 00:00:49.600 |
I was super emotional as a kid, very needy for affection. 00:00:56.860 |
domestic violence situation while I was growing up. 00:01:02.420 |
My dad used to, like, abuse my mom, and hit her. 00:01:05.520 |
And my mom had a daughter after my older sister. 00:01:10.340 |
So my sister, Mary Kay, was a little bit older than me. 00:01:13.860 |
My mom was pregnant with me when she passed away, 00:01:16.780 |
which made my mom decide to finally leave my dad, 00:01:33.220 |
So, that's why everyone says I'm super emotional, 00:01:36.040 |
because my mom was so sad, her whole pregnancy. 00:01:52.960 |
And she sent me to live with my aunt and uncle, 00:01:56.040 |
once or twice, because they had, like, a nuclear family, 00:02:05.600 |
So I had experiences there, and then they told me 00:02:37.020 |
and she didn't have a choice but to work, obviously. 00:02:39.760 |
So, that's when everything kind of went left. 00:02:43.940 |
- So, okay, so you said you were around 13 or so. 00:02:47.880 |
You know, mom's working, and you're kind of independent 00:03:04.300 |
I was, like, that was up with my aunt and uncle. 00:03:10.220 |
all of childhood, you were kind of exposed to a little bit? 00:03:14.260 |
I remember, like, construction workers, like, 00:03:19.860 |
had so much freedom and was out doing your thing? 00:03:24.300 |
and it was very sexualized from a very young age. 00:03:29.020 |
Like, I don't know if it's, like, small town syndrome, 00:03:39.900 |
- Yeah, like, I just wanted acceptance, I think. 00:03:43.700 |
- So, I started, like, running away from home 00:03:52.100 |
first started running away to Southwest Detroit 00:03:59.820 |
and eventually ended up moving from Southwest Detroit 00:04:15.540 |
- She had no idea, 'cause she was at work all the time. 00:04:20.320 |
You're running away from home and things like that. 00:04:23.160 |
So, now, kinda, you're in your teenage years. 00:04:25.000 |
Get into, kinda, the whole story about everything. 00:04:39.440 |
and just, like, hanging out with people in the neighborhood. 00:04:42.760 |
I stayed with her and her boyfriend at the time, 00:04:54.840 |
I think I started to see, like, the darkness. 00:05:07.640 |
Like, they would fill squirt guns with urine. 00:05:13.280 |
and I was just thinking to myself, where does that happen? 00:05:15.440 |
Like, I've never, you said Southwest Detroit, right? 00:05:20.600 |
of guys just having water guns with pee just red-hot. 00:05:26.640 |
- They're just trying to cause trouble, I guess. 00:05:44.040 |
And this guy walks in, and he introduces himself, 00:05:51.720 |
And he was like, "I have it somewhere you can stay. 00:06:08.200 |
Random guy walks in and just pays for your food. 00:06:09.880 |
- I had known somebody was looking for me for a while, 00:06:17.560 |
They were just, like, scouting for him, I think. 00:06:20.300 |
And they were like, "Oh, James is looking for you. 00:06:22.000 |
"Like, he's, like, you know, next time you come around." 00:06:34.580 |
And I walk in, and there's, like, a bunch of girls my age 00:06:39.480 |
And I don't know, I was just like, "What is going on?" 00:06:43.800 |
- Was it, like, as soon as you walked in there, 00:06:45.560 |
where you did your, like, alarm go off in your head, 00:06:47.920 |
or were you just kind of, like, you had no idea? 00:06:51.440 |
to everything at that point? - Very naive, unfortunately. 00:06:54.680 |
So, like, the girls were really welcoming and nice, 00:07:08.760 |
I was, like, shocked, because I wasn't expecting it. 00:07:11.800 |
Like, I thought this person just wanted to help. 00:07:16.000 |
I wasn't raised in, like, a bad neighborhood. 00:07:21.980 |
So things kind of, like, were cool for a couple weeks. 00:07:35.240 |
not realizing, like, that was a debt I was accruing. 00:07:39.040 |
So that, like, when I finally, like, saw him, 00:07:57.260 |
"Like, you have to pay off all the stuff that I got you." 00:08:05.600 |
Like, I didn't realize that's not how it works. 00:08:07.480 |
You can't just be like, "Here, take your clothes back. 00:08:12.520 |
And this was the first time you saw him switch, like-- 00:08:35.660 |
living with him was-- - It was a couple weeks. 00:08:43.500 |
And then, yeah, he sexually assaulted me on the stairs. 00:08:53.540 |
And I found out he had done that to all the girls. 00:09:12.580 |
- So these girls are living with you for two weeks, 00:09:17.740 |
I wonder, did they feel like they were indebted to him, 00:09:25.380 |
And some of them, I think, like, kind of, like, accepted 00:09:31.780 |
- Yeah, so they were, like, making the most of it. 00:09:38.220 |
and, like, it was just, like, our new normal, you know? 00:09:53.460 |
he would start taking me with him, like, out. 00:09:56.900 |
So there was him and this other guy with dreads. 00:10:03.900 |
And they would take us, like, outside of the city. 00:10:12.380 |
We went to, like, neighborhoods right around my neighborhood 00:10:25.180 |
and then you would have to do whatever he asked you to do, 00:10:30.020 |
- So at this point, you guys are 13 and 14-year-old. 00:10:47.140 |
so you're going into these houses by yourself. 00:10:49.240 |
Are you trying to come up with any plans to escape, 00:11:17.300 |
"like, four in the morning when everyone's sleeping, 00:11:29.180 |
we're, like, sneaking out the door to go over there, 00:11:56.120 |
- She was hustling me, or hustling us, basically, 00:11:58.760 |
to try to get her son doing what James was doing. 00:12:03.040 |
- Okay, so did James ever find out and you guys-- 00:12:07.440 |
Like, we ended up, like, leaving that guy's house 00:12:09.800 |
because he wasn't as organized, he wasn't organized. 00:12:13.280 |
James, like, had people circling the block all the time, 00:12:15.860 |
so if we walked outside, we knew people were watching us. 00:12:27.900 |
obviously you're not having a lot of communication 00:12:33.780 |
you know, you had gone away from the house so many times? 00:12:41.540 |
There was a lot that transpired before James, 00:12:46.180 |
Like, I was with this one guy that was in his 30s, 00:12:50.640 |
in downtown Detroit in Hart Plaza, like, wintertime, 00:13:00.320 |
I'm trying to figure that out in therapy now. 00:13:02.500 |
But there were so many instances where I ran away 00:13:11.280 |
she was telling the police, there were reports made, 00:13:28.900 |
Okay, so yeah, continue kind of with the story from there. 00:13:39.960 |
- We went to, we were doing outcalls at houses, 00:13:52.340 |
And then the other room was used for, like, clients, 00:13:55.260 |
people that came to, like, see us or whatever. 00:14:01.080 |
When I was a teenager, I was taking this birth control, 00:14:31.000 |
for the birth control I needed to stop the bleeding. 00:14:35.820 |
- Yeah, what type of messed up stuff is that? 00:14:47.940 |
Like, all these people wearing wings jerseys. 00:15:03.580 |
Like, they just reminded me of my family members. 00:15:07.500 |
And they had wedding rings on, and I was just, 00:15:11.460 |
I think at that point, you're, like, nowhere is safe. 00:15:16.400 |
Like, if you have a doctor. - Yeah, 'cause you married guys. 00:15:25.500 |
But, like, you wouldn't believe, like, what he was doing. 00:15:29.580 |
- What he's doing on the side. - Like, low-key, yeah. 00:15:46.060 |
In the lobby, I'm sure he paid the hotel managers off 00:15:54.780 |
And I wasn't, like, telling on him or anything. 00:16:09.600 |
and he popped out and, like, hit me in my face. 00:16:24.300 |
And I was not prepared for getting hit in the face. 00:16:28.240 |
But that was the first time he, like, physically, 00:16:31.900 |
But he did it to the other girls all the time. 00:16:40.560 |
Sometimes he, when he flipped a switch on the stairs 00:16:43.320 |
that one day, he never went back to, like, being-- 00:16:50.320 |
Like, unless he's, there's something that's triggering him, 00:17:03.000 |
to see that, because it was, like, terrifying. 00:17:29.360 |
And then his kid is gonna grow up and do the same thing. 00:17:32.000 |
- I think it's very admirable that that was your thoughts 00:17:40.800 |
- There's no, yeah, there's no point in doing that. 00:17:53.380 |
- No, I don't remember him hitting me again after that, 00:18:01.200 |
- Didn't do anything, yeah, and I was staying at his, 00:18:13.760 |
And my mom, like, I didn't realize it was my mom, 00:18:22.340 |
and the interior light is on, and I see, like, a white lady. 00:18:34.360 |
she, like, locked in, and, like, turned her mom voice on. 00:18:38.120 |
It was like, Catherine Michelle, get in this car right now. 00:18:57.760 |
And the cops were just very, like, dismissive, 00:19:15.240 |
And it was just not, I just wanted to go home. 00:19:24.560 |
law enforcement and everything is so dismissive of the, 00:19:27.480 |
and one of the reasons I wanted you to get on this podcast 00:19:29.640 |
is 'cause I feel like this issue is so under-talked about. 00:19:32.840 |
And I remember looking it up on Google or something, 00:19:36.080 |
the amount of times this happens to kids underage, 00:19:40.160 |
but, you know, people in general is, like, crazy, 00:19:43.640 |
but it's not a mainstream talked-about thing. 00:19:46.240 |
And I feel like even, you know, you go to law enforcement, 00:19:49.160 |
you tell them what's going on, and they don't act on it. 00:19:51.600 |
Have you thought about why you think that is? 00:19:55.300 |
I honestly, I'm sure it's, like, hard to develop a case, 00:20:02.580 |
and put in prison, I don't wanna say for sure. 00:20:05.520 |
I think it was, like, 2012-ish, or '13 maybe. 00:20:10.800 |
But he was locked up, and he's still in prison. 00:20:15.160 |
But between the time this happened to me and that time, 00:20:21.920 |
Like, because the cops were dragging their feet, 00:20:43.560 |
like, being trafficked across countries and, like, all that, 00:20:55.320 |
because they're rebelling, or they don't have a dad, 00:21:00.080 |
or they just need a little bit more attention emotionally 00:21:02.640 |
from their parents, they're being trafficked, 00:21:09.560 |
they get arrested and booked for prostitution. 00:21:19.240 |
So your mom sees you, she has you get in the car. 00:21:30.040 |
Left it alone, and I, like, dealt with, like, guilt 00:21:39.360 |
Like, he had another house where he kept older women, 00:21:45.040 |
I just remember pulling up there, he would run drugs in, 00:21:56.200 |
were no longer teenagers, they're addicted to substances 00:21:59.040 |
because that's how he would get girls to, like, stay, 00:22:02.080 |
essentially, they would rely on him for drugs. 00:22:06.960 |
and I think those women were working, like, the street 00:22:15.640 |
So how many years after you get out of this situation 00:22:20.360 |
is he finally, they build a case, and they arrest him? 00:22:27.960 |
'Cause you just said he's out for parole, 2028? 00:22:32.960 |
It was, like, prostitution, solicitate, like, all the, 00:22:37.960 |
everything was, everything he got in trouble for 00:22:47.080 |
that I'm sifting through right now, but that's it. 00:22:49.840 |
There was no rape on there, which really bothered me. 00:22:58.240 |
And I was like, "Hey, I had interactions with this man. 00:23:13.920 |
"the whole time you were with him and send it to me." 00:23:16.360 |
And I wasn't, like, at a place in my healing journey 00:23:19.320 |
where I could sit down and write everything down, 00:23:22.000 |
step-by-step, like, that's a lot, it takes a lot. 00:23:24.360 |
I'd rather talk about it, but that's not really an option. 00:23:27.360 |
- So, all this happens, you go back with your mom, 00:23:34.700 |
Like, what was your life like for those next, 00:23:48.320 |
- I was, like, 15, 16, well, I met my son's dad 00:23:53.720 |
when I was 16, so when I came back with my mom, 00:23:58.480 |
like an adult education, with all the bad kids. 00:24:03.000 |
- So, I met this girl there, and we used to go 00:24:14.000 |
and I got pregnant, like, a month or two months 00:24:23.300 |
I raise my kids by myself, he's not involved. 00:24:27.120 |
- But, yeah, he was, like, a good dad for a while, 00:24:30.480 |
and then I left, because he was emotionally abusive. 00:24:52.680 |
Yeah, I wanna, like, bring some attention to this, 00:24:56.940 |
because, so, I'm sure all these things that come out, 00:25:00.040 |
like the Sound of Freedom movie and all these things, 00:25:04.860 |
for you being kinda, like, in that situation. 00:25:16.300 |
but they were walking me through how they developed 00:25:25.760 |
They give all this information to law enforcement. 00:25:34.480 |
and they can, all they gotta do is call the Comcast 00:25:37.600 |
or whoever it is and get the physical address, 00:25:45.660 |
- To believe, like, how much this issue is, like, ignored. 00:25:49.920 |
Like, it's one of the most prevalent, like, crimes 00:25:55.120 |
and I was asking them the same question, like, 00:26:00.760 |
Why do you think when "Sound of Freedom" comes out, 00:26:10.360 |
Do you have, like, any thoughts on why you think that is? 00:26:14.240 |
- I, this, I haven't seen "Sound of Freedom." 00:26:17.120 |
I just spoke about this, actually, last week. 00:26:19.120 |
I did a podcast with this man I met in prison 00:26:28.720 |
and he has a podcast, and we spoke about "Sound of Freedom" 00:26:32.320 |
and how there are certain undertones in the movie. 00:26:37.320 |
I think that, for me, these movies are great for awareness, 00:26:47.160 |
I don't know if you remember that, like, media storm 00:26:57.040 |
- I, no, I'm so, I just feel like it was such a conspiracy. 00:27:01.640 |
- So the conspiracy side of all this, you know, 00:27:08.080 |
getting these kids and doing this crazy stuff, 00:27:12.120 |
- I do, 'cause there were rich, white dudes buying me. 00:27:18.800 |
Why aren't the men who are purchasing children, 00:27:25.580 |
- Why is my pimp in prison for all those years? 00:27:30.580 |
I mean, he deserves it, but all the men that purchased me 00:27:34.760 |
and the girls that were with me, like, where are they at? 00:27:52.580 |
want to expose these individuals that you met, 00:28:00.200 |
If they have daughters and their daughters have sleepovers, 00:28:09.640 |
to, like, rings, or if they're putting something 00:28:17.800 |
Like, you start to, like, learn game really quickly, 00:28:36.480 |
and neither are 15 other men who are doing the same thing, 00:28:39.700 |
and then you're taking those things back to your family, 00:28:49.280 |
just because it can happen to so many people. 00:28:52.180 |
So many people don't grow up in a stable household, 00:28:58.520 |
But even, like, you know, I've heard so many stories 00:29:01.180 |
about even, like, kids at a park or something, 00:29:06.700 |
and their parent turns their head for a second, 00:29:13.580 |
why it's not, like, pushed more of it as an issue. 00:29:24.500 |
that was the thing that I, kind of, wanted to get across, 00:29:44.740 |
- They knew who he was, 'cause they warned my mom, 00:30:18.480 |
I have to figure out how to make my life work as a mom, 00:30:21.420 |
and business owner, and how I interact with the public. 00:30:43.580 |
I mean, I think that part of the putting this kind of, 00:30:53.820 |
or because they can do these things to these children, 00:31:04.000 |
that don't talk about it 'til they're way older, 00:31:18.480 |
- Well, the interview last year was a big step for me. 00:31:22.200 |
I didn't talk about that side of things ever. 00:31:25.900 |
So, there's, like, well, I'm a single mom, obviously, 00:31:31.520 |
carrying the weight of what I did as a teenager is hard, 00:31:35.920 |
because, like, regardless of if it's my fault or not, 00:31:43.420 |
Like, at 36, like, between the age of, like, 13 and 15, 00:31:47.680 |
like, there were a lot of people, like, sexually. 00:31:57.760 |
I didn't want her to think about me as, like, 00:32:00.280 |
being promiscuous or being a prostitute, essentially. 00:32:05.080 |
Like, I don't wanna be put into that category. 00:32:11.100 |
and want to do it on their own, that's their own thing. 00:32:26.440 |
feel empowered when I'm interacting with men, 00:32:30.180 |
I kind of had to just be like, this is, like, me. 00:32:41.740 |
And yeah, I don't, that's just, it took a long time. 00:32:53.880 |
I didn't want you to think I was, like, dirty. 00:33:12.400 |
She did the best she could with what she had. 00:33:18.120 |
Wasn't, I feel like, our parents' generation, 00:33:29.560 |
When you don't realize your past is always with you, 00:33:35.380 |
So there's a such thing as called, like, generational, 00:33:37.880 |
kind of, like, curses or generational, you know, traumas, 00:33:46.840 |
and then they grow up, and the same thing happens to them, 00:33:53.680 |
speaking about a healing from it and things like that, 00:33:56.300 |
you've broken that, but was that, do you think, 00:34:06.800 |
do you think, how do you think that all went together? 00:34:16.860 |
I am just, like, always waiting for the person to bail 00:34:29.900 |
but, and I'm, like, just wait until you see, like, 00:34:33.280 |
the trauma stuff, or I talk about that, like, 00:34:38.280 |
and then I'm, like, oh, I was right, like, they left. 00:34:41.680 |
So it's almost, like, this cycle of, I do self-sabotage. 00:34:45.340 |
I've had, like, good relationships that I just, 00:34:56.600 |
It's kind of, like, why are you being nice to me? 00:35:05.460 |
- Has any of this, 'cause I know, like, you know, 00:35:11.740 |
A lot of people's trauma doesn't relate to yours at all. 00:35:15.140 |
I feel like people react in, like, one of two ways. 00:35:20.920 |
oh, I have to go to God with this, and let him heal me, 00:35:24.660 |
or else I'll never be whole again, I'll never feel whole. 00:35:36.700 |
How did you kind of react to all this, in terms of that? 00:35:44.500 |
'Cause I think, like, people that have been through a lot, 00:35:47.460 |
regardless of what it is, they either, like, you know, 00:35:57.380 |
just 'cause they see all the bad in the world. 00:36:05.980 |
where I was, like, trying to figure out what I was. 00:36:12.260 |
Am I, I was vegan for so long, I was sober for 10 years. 00:36:26.420 |
But I have, like, had moments where I'm curious about it, 00:36:31.740 |
or I want to know more, but I haven't actually, like, 00:36:46.100 |
Because, like, my life is very much, like, you, 00:36:55.700 |
Yeah, I do, because my son's dad is not there. 00:37:20.060 |
- Because I don't see it or feel it in my life. 00:37:32.220 |
I mean, obviously you've touched so many people. 00:37:34.340 |
I mean, all you gotta do is look in the comments 00:37:37.820 |
that either relate to your story or, you know, 00:37:42.260 |
Do you feel like through everything that's bad, 00:37:46.020 |
it has shaped your purpose at all now in life, or? 00:37:51.860 |
It's, like, crazy, 'cause I've figured it out finally. 00:38:02.260 |
And I went with a really good friend of mine. 00:38:17.220 |
and they're there, you know, not having to be. 00:38:25.700 |
because I wasn't prepared for how I was gonna feel. 00:38:34.500 |
Like, they were so respectful, and I felt safe. 00:38:39.740 |
like, hanging out, talking, learning about each other. 00:38:41.820 |
I even had a pimp come up to me after our last game, 00:38:47.020 |
It was like, "Hey, I'm here for pimping and pandering. 00:38:59.820 |
is, like, very much a, like, societal, systemic issue. 00:39:03.900 |
So my pimp, like, I can only assume he grew up in Detroit. 00:39:08.500 |
There's no opportunity in the city at that time. 00:39:16.580 |
You have to go outside the city to get, like, anything. 00:39:20.140 |
So imagine just, like, being trapped in a city. 00:39:32.780 |
and you're seeing men in your communities sell drugs 00:39:51.140 |
- I think that takes incredible strength and compassion. 00:39:56.780 |
I mean, any, I feel like any community where, you know, 00:40:05.020 |
I feel like, you know, no matter how bad the community is, 00:40:28.540 |
- Like, there's just so many elements that come into play. 00:40:30.660 |
And yes, he was a grown man and continued to do it. 00:40:35.340 |
I just tried to find the humanity in the situation 00:40:53.900 |
And I would like, I'm hoping to sit with him one day. 00:40:57.460 |
Like, go before he gets paroled and sit and talk to him. 00:41:01.980 |
But that's why, also why I went to the prison. 00:41:03.820 |
Because these men are like, they're still human. 00:41:08.820 |
And I think if more women that were survivors 00:41:12.380 |
or people that have survived crime would sit down 00:41:16.180 |
and build some sort of human connection with the other side, 00:41:21.180 |
like, there could be so much healing that can take place. 00:41:31.340 |
- So that is what you view now as your purpose? 00:41:42.980 |
I mean, obviously some people, it just happens. 00:41:53.420 |
- It's hard because I don't put it on the teen girls. 00:41:59.940 |
So I feel like it starts much younger than that. 00:42:08.780 |
or they're depressed or they're in their room all the time 00:42:16.140 |
Like you have to find a way to connect with them 00:42:18.740 |
and reach them in a way that's not like authoritative 00:42:28.740 |
But like, if my daughter is throwing a tantrum 00:42:45.340 |
and like telling them to like stop acting that way 00:42:48.140 |
or you're grounded, I'm taking this, I'm taking that, 00:42:54.780 |
and like get to know them on like a human level because-- 00:43:05.020 |
like with me, like I was the rebel of all the children, 00:43:16.620 |
But like I talked to my parents about it now, 00:43:19.980 |
I was like, because you guys didn't let me like do stuff 00:43:33.620 |
like I was so mad that they were making me do, 00:43:42.040 |
and it's yeah, it's more exactly what you say. 00:43:46.940 |
no, you can't do this, stay in line, this and that, 00:43:49.460 |
all that's gonna do is make them kind of rebel more, 00:44:07.260 |
that like I bought him a PC for his 18th birthday, 00:44:14.540 |
Like so many people, like his dad has taken so much from him 00:44:17.140 |
like stolen money from him, like birthday money, 00:44:27.580 |
The internet is a dangerous place, straight up. 00:44:32.340 |
I'm just monitoring all the time as much as I can 00:44:40.980 |
where your kids are comfortable talking to you about things 00:44:43.420 |
and not feeling like they're gonna get in trouble 00:44:47.500 |
Like if I mess up and I'm like snap at my kids 00:45:00.820 |
I lost control of my emotions and I apologize. 00:45:06.340 |
So they know like, okay, well, she's taking accountability. 00:45:09.000 |
So like, it feels more like a mutual relationship 00:45:30.780 |
and like people with your bravery and courage 00:45:33.200 |
and vulnerability like for this kind of issue. 00:45:37.060 |
And I don't know, I mean, obviously we live in a, 00:45:39.980 |
this is an evil world and a lot of bad things go on, 00:45:54.280 |
like I really hope God makes himself real to you. 00:45:57.600 |
I've never like prayed for anybody on a podcast 00:46:04.380 |
because I like feel, I mean, obviously I feel terrible 00:46:12.780 |
in a way that is like really powerful for a lot of people 00:46:18.580 |
You give people courage to talk up about their situation. 00:46:22.180 |
So I just wanted to ask you if I could pray for you 00:46:24.860 |
and then I wanted to invite you to church on Sunday 00:46:27.060 |
'cause you said you haven't been to church for a while. 00:46:28.500 |
- I haven't been to church since I was like 12. 00:46:57.300 |
Heal her in ways that she didn't even know was possible. 00:47:05.620 |
give her complete confidence and wholeness in herself, 00:47:23.820 |
and we thank you that even though terrible things happen 00:47:35.700 |
- Well, I appreciate you being on this podcast so much. 00:47:39.340 |
This was for sure one of my favorite episodes 00:47:45.020 |
I was always confused why it wasn't kind of brought 00:47:48.340 |
so it means a lot to me that you were willing 00:47:54.100 |
- Hopefully lots of people see and behave differently.