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Berean Community Church Evening Devotions 4/13/2022


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00:07:25.000 | Good evening everyone. We're just gonna go ahead and start off the night with a time of worship.
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00:11:12.000 | Hello everyone. Welcome again to Passion Week devotions.
00:11:29.000 | This is something we've been doing for years now.
00:11:33.000 | And Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday we've been giving these devotions to help us see how Jesus walked the last days before crucifixion.
00:11:41.000 | Something I wanted to remind us of also is as we see how Jesus intentionally takes each of these days towards the cross,
00:11:50.000 | it causes us to feel and see the richness of what led to that death and what leads to the resurrection.
00:11:59.000 | And our hope is that we would all be able to feel and sense the depths of that so that even the depths of our worship would grow.
00:12:07.000 | And today as we spend time going through this together, I hope we're also all very encouraged.
00:12:14.000 | I know someone I talked to recently said, "Oh man, it's so nice to be able to be here just on these days of the week.
00:12:21.000 | It's nice to be together to worship even though it's just a short hour."
00:12:26.000 | And in that, it would encourage us and spur us on towards greater worship of Christ.
00:12:31.000 | After our prayer set here, we're going to be having our brother Mark come up to give his testimony of how he became a saved person.
00:12:38.000 | And after that, we'll be going into a silent Wednesday.
00:12:42.000 | Let me go ahead and pray for us.
00:12:44.000 | Heavenly Father, we come here,
00:12:52.000 | God, remembering that though perhaps we've thought of your march, of Jesus' march to the cross time and time again,
00:13:02.000 | Lord, that this is a fresh privilege and opportunity.
00:13:10.000 | God, to remember anew what it is that Christ did to purchase salvation for us.
00:13:20.000 | God, he didn't just die.
00:13:22.000 | There was so much he had to endure.
00:13:25.000 | So much that our Lord and Savior had to go through.
00:13:30.000 | And Father, we don't want to take this flippantly.
00:13:35.000 | We want to remember him.
00:13:37.000 | God, we want to thank you for each of these days, for each story we go into, for each account in these Gospels.
00:13:49.000 | God, we want to remember it and never forget it.
00:13:51.000 | We do not want the Gospel to grow stale in our lives.
00:13:55.000 | And so Lord, tonight we come in humble adoration, but also in humble submission.
00:14:02.000 | Lord, coming with empty hands, asking you, Father, to break our hearts.
00:14:09.000 | Remind us, Lord.
00:14:11.000 | Remind us of what you did.
00:14:14.000 | Let it be fresh to us.
00:14:18.000 | And Lord, let it cause in us a huge worship towards a huge God.
00:14:23.000 | In Jesus' name we pray, amen.
00:14:25.000 | Can we all stand for a time of worship?
00:14:29.000 | Amen.
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00:14:53.000 | Though the nations rage, kingdoms rise and fall,
00:15:02.000 | There is still one King reigning over all.
00:15:13.000 | So I will not fear, for this truth remains,
00:15:23.000 | That my God is the Ancient of Days.
00:15:34.000 | None above Him, none before Him, all of time in His hand.
00:15:44.000 | For His throne it shall remain and ever stand.
00:15:55.000 | All the power, all the glory, I will trust in His name.
00:16:05.000 | For my God is the Ancient of Days.
00:16:17.000 | Though the dread of night overwhelms my soul,
00:16:27.000 | He is here with me.
00:16:32.000 | I am not alone, for His love is sure.
00:16:44.000 | And He knows my name, for my God is the Ancient of Days.
00:16:57.000 | None above Him, none before Him, all of time in His hand.
00:17:11.000 | For His throne it shall remain and ever stand.
00:17:18.000 | All the power, all the glory, I will trust in His name.
00:17:31.000 | For my God is the Ancient of Days.
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00:17:58.000 | Though I may not see what the future brings,
00:18:09.000 | I will watch and wait for the Savior King.
00:18:19.000 | Then my joy complete, standing face to face
00:18:31.000 | in the presence of the Ancient of Days.
00:18:41.000 | None above Him, none before Him, all of time in His hand.
00:18:53.000 | For His throne it shall remain and ever stand.
00:19:01.000 | All the power, all the glory, I will trust in His name.
00:19:14.000 | For my God is the Ancient of Days.
00:19:23.000 | For my God is the Ancient of Days.
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00:20:11.000 | All I once held dear, build my life upon.
00:20:20.000 | All this world reviews and wars to own.
00:20:27.000 | All I once stocked gain, I have counted lost.
00:20:35.000 | Spent and worthless now compared to this.
00:20:45.000 | Knowing you, Jesus, knowing you, there is no greater thing.
00:21:00.000 | You're my all, you're the best.
00:21:04.000 | You're my joy, my righteousness, and I love you more.
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00:21:18.000 | Now my heart's desire is to know you more,
00:21:26.000 | to be found in you and known as yours.
00:21:35.000 | Presence by faith what I could not earn,
00:21:42.000 | all surpassing gift of righteousness.
00:21:51.000 | Knowing you, Jesus, knowing you,
00:22:00.000 | there is no greater thing.
00:22:06.000 | You're my all, you're the best.
00:22:10.000 | You're my joy, my righteousness, and I love you more.
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00:22:24.000 | Oh, to know the power of your risen life
00:22:31.000 | and to know you in your sufferings.
00:22:38.000 | To become like you in your death, my Lord.
00:22:47.000 | Oh, with you to live and never die.
00:22:55.000 | Knowing you, Jesus, knowing you,
00:23:03.000 | there is no greater thing.
00:23:10.000 | You're my all, you're the best.
00:23:15.000 | You're my joy, my righteousness, and I love you more.
00:23:24.000 | Knowing you, Jesus, knowing you,
00:23:32.000 | there is no greater thing.
00:23:39.000 | You're my all, you're the best.
00:23:44.000 | You're my joy, my righteousness, and I love you more.
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00:23:56.000 | You may be seated.
00:24:11.000 | All right. Good evening, church family.
00:24:14.000 | My name is Mark Barlas. I'm married to Mel.
00:24:17.000 | We have two kids, Amelia and Jack.
00:24:19.000 | So I have the privilege of this evening of sharing my testimony,
00:24:24.000 | what God has done in my life and what he's doing as of late.
00:24:27.000 | And so I've kind of broken up my testimony to hopefully help you guys follow along.
00:24:31.000 | And in retrospect, I actually was really blessed by going over it.
00:24:35.000 | It just reminds me of God's handiwork in my own life and what he continues to do.
00:24:40.000 | And so I begin by presenting the questions that filled my mind throughout high school and college.
00:24:46.000 | What did I grow up believing? Is it truth? What is truth?
00:24:50.000 | How come I never heard these things about God despite growing up in religious circles?
00:24:56.000 | And so my family, growing up, we practiced a type of Catholicism
00:25:00.000 | that infused a lot of superstitious beliefs.
00:25:03.000 | One such superstition dealt with hand-me-down shoes and wallets
00:25:07.000 | accompanied with cash in hopes that the recipient's wealth would multiply tenfold.
00:25:12.000 | So you can imagine how much money would come in shoes, for example.
00:25:15.000 | And these rituals were understood as, "We just do it because it's always been the way it is."
00:25:21.000 | In addition to attending Catholic services, praying the rosary,
00:25:26.000 | confessing to a priest, and pursuing good deeds, followed that same logic.
00:25:31.000 | That's just how we did it.
00:25:34.000 | In them were the false promises of a happy, blessed life here on Earth
00:25:38.000 | and a great life in eternity.
00:25:41.000 | This would be my paradigm leading up to college.
00:25:44.000 | I wish I could say I didn't fall into doing these things, or fail into doing these things, but I did.
00:25:51.000 | Eventually, it all became a load too big to carry.
00:25:54.000 | Constantly failing to live up to these standards calloused my worldview,
00:25:59.000 | cultivating, obviously, teenage rebellion.
00:26:03.000 | During middle school, high school period, I saw fractures in what, at that time, I called my faith.
00:26:08.000 | Looking back, it was clear that it was man's approval I sought, not the Lord's.
00:26:13.000 | Going to Sunday Mass, petitioning prayers to Jesus, Mary, and various saints
00:26:18.000 | were soon exchanged with meeting new friends, hanging out, pursuing money, excelling in school, whatever else.
00:26:26.000 | I see this was a microcosm of what could have been my life today
00:26:31.000 | had not the Lord saved me.
00:26:33.000 | At that time, my best life on Earth was my God.
00:26:37.000 | The deception was real because it was indoctrinated from the very beginning.
00:26:41.000 | Fast-forwarding to my junior year of high school is a period where I really first thought of God's word being planted or sown.
00:26:49.000 | To many, junior year, obviously, is a make-or-break year.
00:26:53.000 | Academic excellence coupled with extracurricular activities was a surefire way to getting to great colleges.
00:26:59.000 | My late-night outings included studying libraries for PSATs, SATs, and whatever AP tests.
00:27:05.000 | If my friends and I were not studying, we were joining as many social clubs
00:27:08.000 | in an effort to showcase to college recruiters our willingness to go above and beyond.
00:27:13.000 | There was one club I joined thinking this is great to have on my college application,
00:27:19.000 | and it wouldn't require too much other than regular attendance.
00:27:23.000 | My friends encouraged it, and so I went.
00:27:27.000 | Lo and behold, it was a Christian club.
00:27:29.000 | I thought, "Well, I've been to church all my life. Why not?"
00:27:33.000 | This club was evidence, when I look back, of God's providence.
00:27:38.000 | The club covered many topics such as Romans Road, the commandments, the fruits of the Spirit, among other things.
00:27:45.000 | It was my first time encountering these truths, despite me being confirmed in the Catholic Church that year.
00:27:50.000 | I met genuine God-fearing people that are still walking faithfully with the Lord today,
00:27:55.000 | and I'm still close friends and grateful for them.
00:27:58.000 | That same year, one of them invited me to a Bible study at a church called Maranatha Chapel in San Diego.
00:28:05.000 | Their church was going through the book of Hosea, and man, I remember hearing God's Word.
00:28:11.000 | [PAUSE]
00:28:30.000 | It was preached clearly and differently than what I was accustomed to.
00:28:36.000 | [PAUSE]
00:28:40.000 | It was refreshing.
00:28:42.000 | [PAUSE]
00:28:44.000 | A breath of new life?
00:28:46.000 | [PAUSE]
00:28:50.000 | And for the first time, I thought, "Wow, is this truth?
00:28:55.000 | [SNIFFLES]
00:28:56.000 | How is this different from what I grew up with?
00:29:00.000 | Isn't this the same?"
00:29:02.000 | Later on, I went home that evening, contemplating,
00:29:08.000 | and from what I recall, just faint whispers in my head concluded, "This is different."
00:29:15.000 | I continued attending the Bible studies, curious where the study would lead.
00:29:21.000 | And a few studies later, I bought a Bible.
00:29:25.000 | I went to a bookstore, just bought a Bible.
00:29:27.000 | Thankfully, it was the right Bible, because I had no idea.
00:29:30.000 | [LAUGHTER]
00:29:32.000 | And I started reading.
00:29:34.000 | And I remember one of my closest friends mentioned Romans.
00:29:38.000 | I was like, "I don't know where it is," so I just started.
00:29:41.000 | And I can honestly say God's Word was planted.
00:29:44.000 | If I could use emojis back then, it would be the mind-blowing ones.
00:29:49.000 | [SNIFFLES]
00:29:50.000 | Because between Hosea and Romans, concepts of God's faithfulness,
00:29:55.000 | concepts of no one seeking God, concepts of sin, concepts of grace,
00:30:00.000 | all of this perplexed me, but it made sense, a paradox.
00:30:06.000 | Despite my inconsistent attendance to Maranatha,
00:30:09.000 | every encounter with God's Word challenged and changed my worldview.
00:30:14.000 | I began learning more about who God is--
00:30:17.000 | holy, righteous, faithful, gracious, merciful, loving, the list goes on.
00:30:21.000 | His Word exposed my sins of selfish ambition and man's approval.
00:30:26.000 | Like an onion, the layers of my sin were being peeled back,
00:30:29.000 | revealing my core nature, sinful.
00:30:32.000 | Yet I was not willing to surrender.
00:30:36.000 | So I wandered with a rebellious heart my first two years of college,
00:30:41.000 | thinking there was still a space to have what I wanted.
00:30:44.000 | I eventually entered UC Irvine as a junior
00:30:47.000 | and reconnected with old friends and made new ones.
00:30:50.000 | These same friends eventually brought me here to Berean.
00:30:54.000 | Faithful pastors and brothers here walked me through and back to the Word.
00:30:59.000 | It confirmed its validity patiently.
00:31:03.000 | Books such as Philippians, Romans, Matthew, Ephesians
00:31:06.000 | reiterated the insufficiency of my morality ambitions.
00:31:10.000 | These things did not save me but condemned me.
00:31:14.000 | I was a fool thinking I could have the world
00:31:16.000 | and obtain eternal life based on my moral excellence.
00:31:20.000 | God really opened my eyes that year.
00:31:23.000 | Emojis again.
00:31:25.000 | It was clear I was a sinner before a thrice holy God,
00:31:28.000 | deserving of His righteous judgment.
00:31:30.000 | For the first time I was scared but not.
00:31:34.000 | For the first time my heart and heart was being broken,
00:31:39.000 | but a new heart was taking shape.
00:31:49.000 | Psalm 824 spoke truth that forever would change my life,
00:31:56.000 | but God being rich in mercy because of the great love with which He loved us,
00:32:05.000 | even when we were dead in our trespasses,
00:32:08.000 | made us alive together with Christ.
00:32:11.000 | And just a few verses down provided the clarity
00:32:15.000 | that eventually I believed in.
00:32:18.000 | By grace you have been saved through faith, and this is not your own doing.
00:32:21.000 | It is a gift of God, not as a result of works,
00:32:28.000 | so that no one may boast.
00:32:29.000 | For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works,
00:32:32.000 | which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.
00:32:36.000 | It was clear, Christ alone, faith alone.
00:32:41.000 | Just a few months later I confidently declared Jesus Christ
00:32:45.000 | as my Lord and Savior and was baptized.
00:32:48.000 | The sweetness of understanding God's salvation plan
00:32:51.000 | transformed me in ways where family and friends noticed immediately,
00:32:56.000 | asking what happened, why, are you sure?
00:33:00.000 | Some saying that this is just a phase, it will pass.
00:33:03.000 | Well, it's been 15 years since that time.
00:33:08.000 | Praise God that He remains.
00:33:12.000 | The author and perfecter of my faith.
00:33:17.000 | And since then, my family has been the one of the ministries
00:33:22.000 | God's placed in my life.
00:33:27.000 | Sorry.
00:33:30.000 | It's been challenging and heartbreaking on multiple fronts.
00:33:33.000 | Obviously I can't share this evening,
00:33:36.000 | but in these moments of sanctification where I wrestle with surrender,
00:33:39.000 | discernment, obedience, God has faithfully pointed me back to His word,
00:33:44.000 | to who He is, His promises, His kingdom.
00:33:48.000 | Back to the foot of the cross, humbled.
00:33:52.000 | And something I've been meditating on, Philippians 2, 4, 7,
00:33:56.000 | and which I'll conclude with, rejoice in the Lord always.
00:33:59.000 | Again, I will say rejoice.
00:34:01.000 | Let your gentle spirit be known to all men.
00:34:04.000 | The Lord is near.
00:34:06.000 | The Lord is near.
00:34:11.000 | Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication,
00:34:14.000 | with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
00:34:18.000 | And the peace of God which surpasses all comprehension
00:34:21.000 | will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
00:34:24.000 | Thank you.
00:34:26.000 | [applause]
00:34:36.000 | Thanks, Mark.
00:34:41.000 | There's proof that real men cry.
00:34:44.000 | And I'm so thankful for Mark.
00:34:46.000 | He's one of our college staff.
00:34:49.000 | As he was going through that testimony,
00:34:51.000 | I realized there's so many people pouring into his life,
00:34:54.000 | into the entirety of it.
00:34:56.000 | And now here he is pouring right back into our students as well.
00:35:00.000 | And I can't help but marvel.
00:35:03.000 | It's hard not to marvel, you know,
00:35:06.000 | that what Jesus did as we keep trekking with Him in this story
00:35:11.000 | was not just some story 2,000 years ago,
00:35:13.000 | but it has present-day ramification for us every single day.
00:35:17.000 | That all of that was necessary for Mark to be saved,
00:35:22.000 | for me to be saved, and for all of us that call ourselves believers.
00:35:26.000 | I'm very thankful.
00:35:29.000 | May we read for us Luke 22, verses 1-6.
00:35:44.000 | Luke 22, verses 1-6.
00:35:48.000 | [reading]
00:36:17.000 | Let's pray.
00:36:24.000 | Lord, as we go into silent Wednesday this day,
00:36:32.000 | where there might not have been so much activity in the life of Christ as written,
00:36:38.000 | Lord, we can see how much you move.
00:36:43.000 | And Father, as we see this on display,
00:36:46.000 | I pray, Lord, that as we can even remember every single one of our testimonies,
00:36:54.000 | God, that what Christ did on the way to that cross
00:36:58.000 | was vital for us as individuals as well as a body.
00:37:05.000 | And Lord, we just sing a song that says
00:37:11.000 | that knowing you, there is no other thing.
00:37:15.000 | We say, "You're my all. You're the best."
00:37:20.000 | We say, "To live is Christ."
00:37:24.000 | And so, God, I pray that our hearts would trek along with what we sing.
00:37:29.000 | God, that as we see Jesus on the way to this cross,
00:37:34.000 | Lord, that we wouldn't be trying to fit that story into our lives.
00:37:40.000 | But Lord, that that would be the center.
00:37:43.000 | God, that we can see how our lives shed light on what he did there.
00:37:49.000 | That Jesus would be the center of every single one of us.
00:37:53.000 | And Father, that this story would shine.
00:37:56.000 | Help us, Lord, because we are so self-centered a people.
00:38:00.000 | We need your grace in order to properly worship you tonight.
00:38:04.000 | In Jesus' name we pray. Amen.
00:38:10.000 | On day one this past Sunday, Pastor Peter took us through Palm Sunday
00:38:14.000 | where many were singing Hosanna.
00:38:17.000 | And I thought it was really powerful what Pastor Peter kind of ended with,
00:38:21.000 | that Jesus grieves.
00:38:24.000 | On day two this past Monday, Jesus cursed the fig tree.
00:38:29.000 | He cleared and cleansed the temple.
00:38:32.000 | Yesterday on day three, Jesus pronounces the woes on the Jewish leaders
00:38:36.000 | and he tells them to be aware of the future, to be ready for what's coming.
00:38:42.000 | Today, this is day four, this is Wednesday.
00:38:45.000 | Wednesday in Scripture, some people call it Silent Wednesday
00:38:49.000 | because the Gospels are relatively silent about Jesus' activity on this day.
00:38:53.000 | But something that we see is Judas.
00:38:56.000 | Judas Iscariot, and he's very active.
00:39:01.000 | This is a day before the Passover.
00:39:04.000 | And the Passover meal, I'm really excited for that tomorrow.
00:39:07.000 | But I realized then we can't really go into what happened on Passover.
00:39:11.000 | I'm hoping one day we can actually do that for a devotion.
00:39:17.000 | But this is the day before the Last Supper when Jesus and the disciples
00:39:20.000 | would sit down in front of the bread and the wine,
00:39:22.000 | and they would take of that together.
00:39:25.000 | Now I want to read to you again what we just read in Luke 22
00:39:30.000 | and to try your best to walk along with Jesus here,
00:39:36.000 | or the story of Jesus here that's unraveling.
00:39:39.000 | Luke 22 verse 1, I'm going to read it again.
00:39:41.000 | "Now the Feast of Unleavened Bread, which is called the Passover, was approaching.
00:39:46.000 | The chief priests and the scribes were seeking how they might put him to death,
00:39:51.000 | for they were afraid of the people.
00:39:54.000 | And Satan entered into Judas, who was called Iscariot,
00:39:57.000 | belonging to the number of the twelve,
00:39:58.000 | and he went away and discussed with the chief priests and officers
00:40:01.000 | how he might betray him to them."
00:40:03.000 | And I want to focus in here on the parties that are involved.
00:40:08.000 | So either you can look down at the text, you can look up here,
00:40:11.000 | but look and see the detail that Luke is putting in.
00:40:16.000 | First, you see the religious leaders who are conspiring against Jesus to kill him.
00:40:21.000 | In verse 2, "The chief priests and the scribes were seeking."
00:40:24.000 | That word "seeking" is pretty heavy.
00:40:27.000 | They were seeking, intentional, willful,
00:40:33.000 | trying to figure out how can we put this man to death.
00:40:39.000 | But secondly, we see also Satan at work here, who enters into Judas.
00:40:45.000 | Satan's been at work since the beginning.
00:40:49.000 | Satan's been at work trying to figure out how to prevent the Messiah from coming,
00:40:53.000 | and when the Messiah comes into the picture, how to crush him.
00:40:58.000 | But thirdly, and perhaps most heartbreaking, in verse 3,
00:41:02.000 | "And Satan entered into Judas, who was called Iscariot."
00:41:06.000 | Judas Iscariot was conspiring to have Jesus killed.
00:41:09.000 | Now there's so much intention.
00:41:12.000 | If there's any word that I'd like us to take away tonight is "intention,"
00:41:17.000 | because I think that's what Luke is describing.
00:41:19.000 | He's describing intention.
00:41:22.000 | That the chief priests and the scribes were being intentional and willful.
00:41:25.000 | Satan was being intentional and willful.
00:41:28.000 | Judas was being intentional and willful.
00:41:32.000 | In fact, Luke is very careful here to mention that Judas belongs to the twelve.
00:41:37.000 | You see that? Belonging to the number of the twelve.
00:41:40.000 | Why would he mention a fact like that?
00:41:43.000 | To emphasize the fact that Judas was a part of Jesus' inner circle.
00:41:49.000 | Judas intentionally, willfully, even as one who's been walking with Jesus these last three years,
00:41:56.000 | he goes to the chief priests and officers and discusses with those men
00:42:00.000 | who are trying to intentionally kill Jesus, how he might betray Jesus to them.
00:42:06.000 | This is planned and thought out action.
00:42:10.000 | In the account of Matthew, it records Judas' actual words to these leaders.
00:42:15.000 | Let's look at it. Matthew 26, verse 15.
00:42:20.000 | I mean, this is so malicious.
00:42:25.000 | He goes up to the chief priests and scribes and he says,
00:42:29.000 | "What are you willing to give me to betray him to you?"
00:42:33.000 | Isn't this so heartbreaking?
00:42:37.000 | He goes to them and he says, "What will you give me for me to betray him so that you can kill him?"
00:42:45.000 | Wow.
00:42:50.000 | We learn in this account of Matthew that 30 pieces of silver is all it took.
00:42:54.000 | 30 pieces of silver.
00:42:57.000 | Some people say that 30 pieces of silver was what it costed to purchase a slave.
00:43:03.000 | It's shocking that someone so close to Jesus, someone who walked with Jesus,
00:43:09.000 | who saw Jesus' works and miracles, he was in the inner circle.
00:43:13.000 | He was as close as you could get to Jesus.
00:43:16.000 | He witnessed his power firsthand.
00:43:19.000 | He saw Jesus' grace and compassion and mercy upon people.
00:43:24.000 | He saw Jesus' power.
00:43:26.000 | He saw Jesus cast out demons and rebuke disease.
00:43:34.000 | And he actively goes and betrays his Lord.
00:43:38.000 | Satan enters, yes, but this is still him.
00:43:43.000 | This was still the responsibility and action of this man, Judas.
00:43:49.000 | Judas doesn't just give in to a moment of weakness.
00:43:52.000 | He calculates, and after hearing everything it is to enter into the kingdom,
00:43:59.000 | after witnessing all it is that the Holy Spirit was at work,
00:44:03.000 | Judas becomes the one to knock that very first domino down,
00:44:07.000 | and he paves the way for sinful man to nail Jesus to the cross and crucifixion.
00:44:13.000 | Now, I want to remind us of last night.
00:44:16.000 | Judas just heard.
00:44:18.000 | He just heard Jesus pronounce these woes and rebukes upon the leaders of Israel, right?
00:44:28.000 | And he said, "Hypocrites!"
00:44:33.000 | It was a damning preaching.
00:44:38.000 | It was fiery and powerful.
00:44:41.000 | He says, "These men will not enter the kingdom of God."
00:44:45.000 | He heard it.
00:44:49.000 | And yet, Judas goes right to those leaders on this day.
00:44:55.000 | Wow.
00:45:00.000 | It's amazing that Judas doesn't hear.
00:45:05.000 | It's amazing that in that place his heart had become so hardened
00:45:09.000 | that he wouldn't fall in repentance and turn away.
00:45:12.000 | He actually doubled down.
00:45:15.000 | That's how sin works.
00:45:18.000 | This is what we see in him.
00:45:22.000 | Now, though there's not action in regards to Jesus,
00:45:25.000 | what I do want to take a moment is to see what might have been going on in the mind of Jesus on this day.
00:45:34.000 | This is, remember, the last week Jesus walks this earth.
00:45:39.000 | Before, it's not just death.
00:45:42.000 | It's so much more, isn't it?
00:45:46.000 | Before he faces the wrath of God, an eternal wrath of God.
00:45:54.000 | I mean, this is--have you ever been so anxious about something?
00:45:59.000 | Like so anxious about something?
00:46:01.000 | Like what happens to your concentration?
00:46:04.000 | It consumes you, doesn't it?
00:46:07.000 | When you're so scared of a test coming up,
00:46:10.000 | or you're so scared of something that you're going to have to do,
00:46:13.000 | or you're so scared of this thing that's looming, it consumes you.
00:46:17.000 | You can't sleep.
00:46:18.000 | You're just thinking about it all the time.
00:46:20.000 | Things might be going on all around you.
00:46:22.000 | People are walking around all around you.
00:46:23.000 | You can't think about them.
00:46:25.000 | You are so consumed.
00:46:27.000 | This is the last week of Jesus before he takes the cup of wrath.
00:46:36.000 | What was going on in the mind of Jesus?
00:46:46.000 | I mean, what must have it been like for Jesus to know that betrayal,
00:46:50.000 | this betrayal that was to come towards him,
00:46:54.000 | not just from Judas but from all sinners.
00:46:59.000 | What must have been like as Jesus was seeing this happen all around him,
00:47:03.000 | that yet he was going to take the sin of all of the hostility
00:47:07.000 | that was coming out from these people.
00:47:11.000 | I sometimes wonder what it must have been like for Jesus,
00:47:14.000 | who is the holy God,
00:47:18.000 | to walk amongst these people,
00:47:22.000 | to not only be pronouncing woes to the scribes and Pharisees over there
00:47:26.000 | who are trying to kill him,
00:47:28.000 | but even in his inner circle to see vile, depraved sin at work.
00:47:38.000 | That it wasn't just far, it was near.
00:47:41.000 | What must it have been like for Jesus to see that this sin was just so pervasive?
00:47:49.000 | And he was just seeing all of this going around.
00:47:53.000 | That it was Judas, that it was these people,
00:47:56.000 | that it was Satan, everything.
00:48:04.000 | I mean, Jesus doesn't use this last week to think about himself.
00:48:11.000 | He doesn't use this last week to realize what's going on
00:48:14.000 | and the sin that's going on all around him.
00:48:16.000 | He knows what's happening.
00:48:18.000 | He feels it.
00:48:20.000 | There is nothing good around him.
00:48:22.000 | He is the only holy one who is walking around.
00:48:25.000 | The entire planet.
00:48:27.000 | Everything else is broken.
00:48:28.000 | Everything else is vile.
00:48:30.000 | Everything else is fallen.
00:48:32.000 | It's just filth all around him.
00:48:34.000 | And he is walking around thinking of others.
00:48:42.000 | He must have known what Judas was doing on that day.
00:48:48.000 | And he took no action to protect himself.
00:48:51.000 | He took no action to become inward or to cloister or to think that this is a time I can just go
00:48:59.000 | and see if I can be selfish here.
00:49:05.000 | In fact, again, I can't go too much into this because this is tomorrow.
00:49:08.000 | This is the Passover meal.
00:49:10.000 | But the very next day, during the Passover meal, Jesus washes the disciples' feet.
00:49:21.000 | Including Judas's.
00:49:25.000 | What must have it been like for the holy God, the only holy one,
00:49:29.000 | with vile and righteousness and depravity all around him,
00:49:32.000 | to kneel down and wash the filthy feet of filthy sinners?
00:49:43.000 | What must have it been like for him to go in front of Judas, the one who was to betray him,
00:49:46.000 | and do the same?
00:49:51.000 | I think this account reminds us of a couple of things.
00:49:53.000 | First, there is threat.
00:49:56.000 | There is a lot of fear to be had in this story.
00:50:00.000 | Because I think we need to take care of where we stand.
00:50:03.000 | Because what we see in Judas here is that nearness to Christ,
00:50:06.000 | and nearness to the things of Christ, does not guarantee that you know Christ.
00:50:12.000 | It does not guarantee our salvation, let alone our devotion.
00:50:19.000 | It shows us that we need to take stock of our own lives and evaluate our hearts,
00:50:23.000 | and see where there is not only a heart of unbelief,
00:50:26.000 | but perhaps even what we see in Judas, a purposeful rebellion.
00:50:33.000 | A purposeful resistance, and even hatred against God.
00:50:38.000 | As we all have a bit of this Judas inside of us.
00:50:42.000 | And some sitting amongst us are Matthew 7, 21 people,
00:50:46.000 | who will one day come before God as Judas perhaps might have.
00:50:52.000 | Perhaps Judas heard these words.
00:50:54.000 | Perhaps these were his last-ditch things, even though he knew.
00:50:57.000 | He comes and he said, "But maybe, even though I betrayed Jesus,
00:51:03.000 | that I would come before God and say, 'But didn't I do all these things in His name?
00:51:09.000 | Didn't I do all these things in Your name, Jesus?
00:51:11.000 | I know, but does Your cross, does Your blood, does Your grace not cover over all sin?
00:51:19.000 | Didn't I do all those things?'"
00:51:20.000 | And Jesus would have stared at Judas and said, "I never knew you,
00:51:23.000 | but there are those who are sitting amongst us that perhaps would sit in the same place.
00:51:28.000 | So we ought to take care of where we stand."
00:51:38.000 | But I think in this story there's also good news
00:51:43.000 | because Judas' story has closed, but ours are still open.
00:51:53.000 | You still have opportunity today to turn and to repent.
00:51:58.000 | You don't need to meet the same end as Judas.
00:52:02.000 | And this week is all about, I hope you have the opportunity every single night this week
00:52:08.000 | to repent and turn to the Lord because that's what we see in this story.
00:52:14.000 | Secondly, there's hope and grace and love in this story.
00:52:17.000 | We ought to remember how great the love of Christ was in His sacrifice on the cross.
00:52:21.000 | No one was with Him.
00:52:23.000 | Remember, these religious leaders were against Him.
00:52:26.000 | And by the end, the people were shouting out and screaming out, "Crucify Him."
00:52:34.000 | They were even desiring Jesus to die over a high-profile murderer.
00:52:39.000 | His disciples had scattered, deserting Him in the time of His greatest need.
00:52:44.000 | And most terrifying of all, the Father Himself unleashed all the pent-up fury and wrath over sin.
00:52:54.000 | What we see in the midst of the only Holy One who is walking around all these vile, wretched sinners,
00:53:02.000 | even to the point where everyone is not just vile and wretched and living out their own lives,
00:53:07.000 | but breathing hostility against this Jesus, that they might crucify Him,
00:53:13.000 | that we see the love and the grace that might enact in us hope.
00:53:20.000 | Jesus didn't die for good people.
00:53:23.000 | He died for the wretched.
00:53:27.000 | And if we are believers, we are numbered amongst these.
00:53:31.000 | I want to turn our attention to John 13, verse 1.
00:53:37.000 | And this is the John take on what was going on with Judas.
00:53:42.000 | Because right after this, we see what he says about Judas.
00:53:46.000 | In John 13, verse 1, it says, "Now before the feast of the Passover,
00:53:49.000 | Jesus, knowing that His hour had come, that He would depart out of this world to the Father,
00:53:54.000 | having loved His own who were in the world, He loved them to the end."
00:54:00.000 | Again, please, please look carefully.
00:54:05.000 | Please don't let these words just go past.
00:54:08.000 | I know sometimes we have a tendency to look at Scripture,
00:54:11.000 | and then you wait for what the preacher has to say about it.
00:54:14.000 | Look at the words. It says, "Jesus, knowing that His hour had come,
00:54:23.000 | that He would depart out of this world to the Father,
00:54:26.000 | having loved His own who were in the world, He loved them to the end."
00:54:31.000 | It shows us the heart of Jesus, which is just crazy to me.
00:54:39.000 | That as He's walking around, as much as we see the vileness and the wretchedness
00:54:46.000 | of the sinners that are walking all around Him,
00:54:49.000 | that Jesus was filled with a heart of love.
00:54:59.000 | It's a story about Judas and these chief scribes and these Pharisees,
00:55:05.000 | these religious leaders, perhaps about Satan who's at work.
00:55:09.000 | But what we see in this story is actually to paint for us,
00:55:12.000 | not a picture of us looking at the story and being like, "Man, they're pretty bad."
00:55:17.000 | This story is actually supposed to show us in this narrative of Christ
00:55:21.000 | who's walking towards the cross that we are numbered amongst them.
00:55:25.000 | That we are just as depraved, that we are just as vile,
00:55:29.000 | and that we were the ones who actually, actively wanted Christ crucified.
00:55:37.000 | That as intentional, as willful as they were, that so were we.
00:55:43.000 | This is our story. This is us wanting Jesus dead.
00:55:51.000 | And so this is Jesus' love for us in the midst of this.
00:55:59.000 | On Silent Wednesday, as the entire world was working in conjunction to kill the Lord,
00:56:05.000 | we can really see how great sin is and how much greater is the love of God.
00:56:12.000 | There is no good in us. There is nothing good in us.
00:56:18.000 | So I want to lastly go into this text, which I don't have up here,
00:56:23.000 | but would you turn with me to Romans 3?
00:56:26.000 | [Pause]
00:56:45.000 | Chapter 3, verse 10.
00:56:47.000 | [Pause]
00:56:52.000 | "As it is written, 'There is none righteous, not even one.
00:56:57.000 | There is none who understands, there is none who seeks for God.
00:57:01.000 | All have turned aside, together they have become useless.
00:57:04.000 | There is none who does good, there is not even one.
00:57:08.000 | Their throat is an open grave, with their tongues they keep deceiving.
00:57:12.000 | The poison of asps is under their lips, whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness.
00:57:17.000 | Their feet are swift to shed blood. Destruction and misery are in their paths.
00:57:21.000 | And the path of peace they have not known. There is no fear of God before their eyes."
00:57:28.000 | Now we know that whatever the law says, it speaks to those who are under the law,
00:57:32.000 | so that every mouth may be closed and all the world may become accountable to God.
00:57:38.000 | Because by the works of the law, no flesh will be justified in His sight,
00:57:42.000 | for through the law comes the knowledge of sin.
00:57:44.000 | And this describes not only Judas, this describes not only the religious leaders,
00:57:49.000 | this describes every single one of us.
00:57:52.000 | We are counted amongst the mockers.
00:57:56.000 | But verse 21, as we look at the cross,
00:58:00.000 | "But now, apart from the law, the righteousness of God has been manifested,
00:58:04.000 | being witnessed by the law and the prophets.
00:58:06.000 | Even the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all those who believe.
00:58:11.000 | For there is no distinction, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
00:58:16.000 | being justified as a gift by His grace through the redemption which is in Christ Jesus."
00:58:24.000 | Would you take a moment to bow your heads and pray?
00:58:32.000 | I feel like there's a few things that need to happen.
00:58:34.000 | One thing is we need to see the story of Christ and see everything that is going on.
00:58:43.000 | Secondly, that I need to shed light on who we are before Him.
00:58:50.000 | And for us as believers, our hearts beat along with this.
00:58:59.000 | And I'd like us to pray for maybe two things.
00:59:03.000 | One thing, would you pray that God would show us again the vileness and wretchedness of our sin
00:59:10.000 | before Him, our holy God?
00:59:14.000 | And that counts even to our sin today.
00:59:19.000 | Wherever you may stand, whatever it is that you have been fighting with or struggling with
00:59:23.000 | or even giving into, that God would show us the vileness as we've seen the story of Judas,
00:59:33.000 | that this is crucifixion.
00:59:37.000 | Secondly, I pray that we would see the gospel.
00:59:40.000 | And would you pray this as well, that God would show us beauty,
00:59:45.000 | that God would show us individually what it is to marvel, to respond in worship,
00:59:56.000 | to say thank you, and to not just look at our sin and hate the sin,
01:00:02.000 | but to look to Christ and see our true desire,
01:00:06.000 | to want Him more than anything else,
01:00:09.000 | to see all other things fade as shadows.
01:00:14.000 | Because though Jesus was silent on this day,
01:00:18.000 | we can feel His intention in light of the sinner.
01:00:24.000 | Let's take a moment to pray.
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01:02:32.000 | - Heavenly Father, perhaps there's so much more prayer
01:02:34.500 | that needs to be had,
01:02:37.000 | but God, we wanna thank you even for the moment, Lord,
01:02:41.000 | where we can see the story of Jesus on his way to the cross.
01:02:46.000 | And Father, I pray that you would help us to see beauty
01:02:51.500 | amidst the depravity.
01:02:55.000 | Help us, God, to see that there is only one good
01:03:00.000 | amongst the myriads of fallenness and brokenness.
01:03:06.500 | That we might not look to other things to cling to,
01:03:09.000 | but that there is only one that we can cling to.
01:03:12.000 | The only one unshaking good in our lives, our Christ.
01:03:17.500 | Oh, Father, there is no other name under heaven
01:03:22.500 | by which we're saved.
01:03:24.000 | He's all we have.
01:03:27.000 | He is our only hope.
01:03:28.500 | And so, God, I wanna thank you
01:03:34.500 | 'cause even in a testimony shared earlier today,
01:03:37.000 | we see tears of joy as we remember what you did.
01:03:42.500 | And God, I pray that for each one of us this week,
01:03:47.500 | we would remember what you did.
01:03:49.000 | That this story is not 2,000 years ago.
01:03:53.000 | This story is mine, and it's now.
01:03:55.500 | Because it's about my Christ,
01:03:58.500 | and it's about the one I love.
01:04:01.500 | It's the one who gave his life for me.
01:04:04.500 | So thank you, Lord, in Jesus' name we pray, amen.
01:04:08.000 | - For our closing praise.
01:04:11.500 | (gentle music)
01:04:17.000 | (gentle music)
01:04:19.500 | ♪ In Christ alone my hope is found ♪
01:04:41.000 | ♪ He is my light, my strength, my song ♪
01:04:46.000 | ♪ This cornerstone, this solid ground ♪
01:04:51.500 | ♪ Firm through the fiercest drought and storm ♪
01:04:57.000 | ♪ What heights of love, what depths of peace ♪
01:05:02.000 | ♪ When fears are stilled, when striving ceases ♪
01:05:08.500 | ♪ My comforter, my all in all ♪
01:05:13.500 | ♪ Here in the love of Christ I stand ♪
01:05:19.000 | ♪ In Christ alone who took on flesh ♪
01:05:33.500 | ♪ For this heart in helpless pain ♪
01:05:38.500 | ♪ This gift of love and righteousness ♪
01:05:44.000 | ♪ Scorned by the ones he came to save ♪
01:05:49.500 | ♪ 'Til on that cross, at Jesus' life ♪
01:05:55.000 | ♪ The wrath of God was satisfied ♪
01:06:01.000 | ♪ For every sin upon him was laid ♪
01:06:06.000 | ♪ Here in the death of Christ I live ♪
01:06:11.500 | ♪ There in the crown his body lay ♪
01:06:26.500 | ♪ The light of the world by darkness slain ♪
01:06:31.500 | ♪ Then bursting forth in glorious day ♪
01:06:37.000 | ♪ Upon the grave he rose again ♪
01:06:43.000 | ♪ And as he stands in victory ♪
01:06:48.500 | ♪ Since curse has lost its grip on me ♪
01:06:54.500 | ♪ For I am his and he is mine ♪
01:06:59.500 | ♪ Bought with the precious blood of Christ ♪
01:07:05.000 | ♪ No care to mind, no fear in death ♪
01:07:19.500 | ♪ This is the power of Christ in me ♪
01:07:24.500 | ♪ From lifeless cry to final breath ♪
01:07:30.000 | ♪ Jesus commands my destiny ♪
01:07:35.500 | ♪ No power of hell, no scheme of man ♪
01:07:41.000 | ♪ Can ever pluck me from his hand ♪
01:07:47.000 | ♪ 'Til he returns and calls me home ♪
01:07:52.000 | ♪ Here in the power of Christ I'll stand ♪
01:07:57.500 | ♪ No power of hell, no scheme of man ♪
01:08:03.000 | ♪ Can ever pluck me from his hand ♪
01:08:08.500 | ♪ 'Til he returns and calls me home ♪
01:08:15.000 | ♪ Here in the power of Christ I'll stand ♪
01:08:20.000 | - Let's just pray.
01:08:32.000 | Heavenly Father, I pray that we would not leave
01:08:35.000 | as unchanged people.
01:08:37.000 | But God, that we would be resolved
01:08:39.000 | and be filled with conviction, Lord, to respond.
01:08:44.500 | And as we walk out those doors, God, please,
01:08:47.000 | let us be moved into transformation and change.
01:08:52.000 | That we might desire more of Christ.
01:08:55.000 | And that we will want nothing but Christ.
01:08:58.000 | So thank you, Lord, for this week.
01:08:59.500 | In Jesus' name we pray, amen.
01:09:01.000 | Okay, well thank you for coming.
01:09:03.000 | Again, tomorrow it's gonna be Passover meal,
01:09:05.000 | but the logistics team did ask for some help.