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2021-09-26 Jared Kwong Baptism Testimony


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00:00:00.000 | - Hello everyone, my name is Jared Kwong.
00:00:05.000 | I am a fourth year biology major at UCI
00:00:12.040 | and I will be sharing my testimony with you today.
00:00:15.280 | My testimony is a little different
00:00:17.520 | in that I did not have a specific date
00:00:19.780 | where I came to know Christ,
00:00:21.100 | but more of a gradual coming to know him.
00:00:24.180 | I was raised in a Christian family for most of my life.
00:00:28.020 | I went to church.
00:00:30.560 | Before coming to know Christ,
00:00:31.780 | I selfishly desired Christ as a means to get to heaven.
00:00:35.360 | I was introduced to the gospel at a very young age
00:00:37.920 | where I was told that I was a sinner
00:00:39.560 | and if I believed in Jesus, I could go to heaven.
00:00:43.240 | Out of fear of being punished, I put my faith in Christ,
00:00:45.920 | but not actually understanding the weight of my sin
00:00:48.600 | and who Christ really was.
00:00:50.400 | With this very shallow understanding of the gospel,
00:00:54.400 | I grew up thinking I was a Christian.
00:00:56.880 | I would remember all the rules and commandments
00:00:59.300 | I learned in Sunday school
00:01:00.280 | and follow them as best as possible.
00:01:02.380 | Anyone who didn't follow them,
00:01:05.320 | I looked down upon and saw as inferior.
00:01:07.640 | Throughout high school, I began to indulge
00:01:09.520 | in an assortment of sins such as lust, pride,
00:01:12.120 | and selfishness.
00:01:13.800 | At the time though, I did not think I was indulging
00:01:15.960 | in these sins, but just struggling.
00:01:18.480 | I saw these sins as bad, but nothing more than that.
00:01:21.300 | I knew I needed to stop sinning,
00:01:22.680 | but because I did not know the true implications of my sin,
00:01:25.760 | I did not.
00:01:27.560 | I would be challenged in my faith that I had in God
00:01:30.860 | through my home church's youth group.
00:01:32.540 | I began to doubt my salvation and began to seek counsel
00:01:35.440 | from an elder from my home church.
00:01:37.520 | After many meetups, it became evident to me
00:01:40.060 | that I wasn't saved.
00:01:41.320 | I again placed my faith in Christ and would be baptized,
00:01:44.440 | but again with a shallow understanding of the gospel
00:01:46.880 | and only seeing Christ as a means to get to heaven.
00:01:50.440 | In a span of a year and a half,
00:01:52.160 | God would work in my heart to break down the gospel
00:01:54.220 | I created in my head and would work in my heart
00:01:56.800 | to see his true gospel.
00:01:58.760 | He would do this through books, meetups, and sermons.
00:02:03.360 | In the book, The Holiness of God,
00:02:05.400 | was the first time I understood God's holiness
00:02:07.720 | in that he is set apart from me.
00:02:10.060 | Then through the gospel according to Jesus,
00:02:11.680 | God revealed to me that Christ was not just Savior,
00:02:14.240 | but also Lord over my life.
00:02:16.000 | Then in a sermon from Pastor Peter that broke down
00:02:19.480 | my view of the gospel was when he mentioned
00:02:21.120 | that the gospel is not just a safety net
00:02:23.740 | or some free ticket out of hell.
00:02:26.020 | Finally, through a meetup with Pastor Nate,
00:02:28.800 | God made me see that I saw my sin as bad,
00:02:31.660 | but not sorrowful over my sin.
00:02:33.540 | This was the final piece that made me realize
00:02:35.920 | how far I was from God and that I truly did not know him.
00:02:39.800 | After realizing this, I began to pray to God
00:02:42.800 | to reveal to me my sin and to understand
00:02:45.640 | the magnitude of my sin.
00:02:47.100 | After some time, God revealed to me how great my sin
00:02:51.560 | is toward him through Isaiah 6, three to five,
00:02:54.460 | which states, "And one called out to one another
00:02:56.980 | "and said, 'Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts.
00:02:59.880 | "'The whole earth is full of his glory.'
00:03:02.500 | "And the foundations of the thresholds trembled
00:03:04.760 | "at the voice of him who called out
00:03:06.580 | "while the temple was filling with smoke.
00:03:08.660 | "Then I said, 'Woe is me, for I am ruined,
00:03:11.400 | "'because I am a man of unclean lips
00:03:13.260 | "'and live among a people of unclean lips,
00:03:16.020 | "'for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts.'"
00:03:20.320 | From this verse, God revealed to me my need for Christ
00:03:23.620 | in order to be forgiven because of my sins.
00:03:27.560 | After recognizing this, I asked for forgiveness for Christ,
00:03:31.320 | I asked for forgiveness for Christ to be Lord
00:03:33.600 | and Savior over my life and to no longer live
00:03:36.180 | for myself but for Christ.
00:03:37.980 | Although I may not be perfect, I see God sanctifying me
00:03:42.480 | after coming to know him.
00:03:44.360 | One of the big differences in my desires
00:03:46.120 | is that I want others to know him and to be saved.
00:03:48.600 | I see how broken I am but also see the grace of God
00:03:53.440 | that has saved me and I want others to know Christ
00:03:56.120 | and have a personal relationship with him.
00:03:58.220 | As I reflect on the past, I see God's sovereign work
00:04:02.240 | being done in my life and how he has been so gracious
00:04:05.240 | and merciful to me no matter how much I sinned.
00:04:07.800 | This is something I'm always going to be grateful for.
00:04:11.020 | Thank you.
00:04:11.860 | (audience applauding)
00:04:15.020 | the water you're driving prices that we brought
00:04:29.780 | for the United.
00:04:30.640 | (audience applauding)
00:04:33.800 | (man speaking faintly)
00:04:37.040 | (audience applauding)