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4-28-2021 Run With Endurance


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00:00:00.000 | So we're going to be reading verses 1, 2, and 3, but we'll most likely spend most of
00:00:11.680 | our time today in verse 1.
00:00:17.120 | Hebrews chapter 12, verses 1, 2, and 3.
00:00:22.240 | Initially I prepared a two-part message, but it looks like it might turn into a three-part
00:00:25.920 | message.
00:00:26.920 | So I'm going to finish my sermon.
00:00:30.560 | So verses 1, 2, and 3.
00:00:32.680 | "Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay
00:00:36.440 | aside every encumbrance and a sin which so easily entangles us.
00:00:41.040 | Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the
00:00:45.040 | author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, despising
00:00:49.760 | the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
00:00:53.840 | For consider him who has endured such hostility by sinners against himself, so that you will
00:00:58.320 | not grow weary and lose heart."
00:01:00.560 | Let's pray.
00:01:03.520 | Heavenly Father, we pray for grace, we pray for guidance, we pray for your word to come
00:01:11.600 | alive to us.
00:01:14.200 | Whatever it is, Lord God, that we have wrestled with this week, I pray that you would allow
00:01:19.740 | your word to enlighten us.
00:01:22.600 | Allow us to see a glimpse of who you are, that we may hear from you and your children,
00:01:27.600 | hear your voice, and follow you and you alone.
00:01:32.440 | May this time be a time of sanctification and glorification for your name.
00:01:37.800 | In Jesus' name we pray, amen.
00:01:42.080 | All right, so we are finally making a transition from chapter 11 to chapter 12.
00:01:47.440 | And if you notice, chapter 12, verse 1, begins with the word "therefore."
00:01:52.400 | And so "therefore," whenever you see that in the Bible, is very significant because
00:01:56.320 | it's connecting or concluding a thought that was started in the previous chapter.
00:02:02.920 | But this "therefore" is not just any "therefore."
00:02:06.080 | This "therefore" not only connects it to chapter 11, which is the immediate context,
00:02:10.360 | it really is a connection to all of 11 chapters.
00:02:14.280 | And so there's a big shift that happens between chapter 11 and chapter 12.
00:02:19.000 | So what happens in chapter 12 to chapter 13 is a conclusion of what he's been saying in
00:02:24.760 | the 11 chapters.
00:02:26.240 | Therefore, all the things that we have said, this is the conclusion.
00:02:31.600 | So we're moving from indicatives to imperatives.
00:02:34.280 | Now the main emphasis in chapter 12 and 13 is considering who Jesus is.
00:02:39.120 | If he is truly superior over everything else in this world, what should that look like
00:02:44.440 | in the life of a believer?
00:02:47.000 | And so he's moving into not only just this verse, not only just for the next few sermons,
00:02:52.840 | but again, into the imperatives where he's going to give us instructions on what a Christian
00:02:58.080 | life should look like in perseverance.
00:03:02.120 | You know, all of us probably fall into one or the other category.
00:03:07.000 | I find that there are some people who naturally gravitate toward theology.
00:03:11.280 | You know, you guys are thinkers.
00:03:12.360 | You love to read and you love to ask questions and dig and you get frustrated that people
00:03:17.480 | don't want to have conversations about dispensationalism and, you know, hypostatic union of Christ.
00:03:22.760 | And you love deep things and you get frustrated when people are not that way.
00:03:28.360 | And then there are some of you that fall into the other category where as soon as we get
00:03:32.840 | into something that's a little bit deeper than what we see in scripture, we think it's
00:03:36.760 | like, "Oh, you know, we don't want to get into that.
00:03:38.720 | Those are for theologians."
00:03:39.720 | You know, if we get too deep into theology, it divides the church.
00:03:43.000 | So we want to stay united.
00:03:44.600 | Just tell us what to do, right?
00:03:47.040 | And so we don't need to know all that other stuff.
00:03:48.680 | And, you know, keep that in the seminary.
00:03:50.400 | And we just, we just like teach us how to disciple and raise children and evangelize.
00:03:54.560 | And so some of us fall into that other category.
00:03:57.960 | Well, if you do one without the other, you're going to really miss the whole point of scripture
00:04:02.760 | because the point of scripture is not to get somebody who's not in the church to be in
00:04:06.800 | the church and to have people who are in the church to become members and to have members
00:04:12.480 | come out to Bible study and then have Bible study people to serve in the church.
00:04:16.600 | The point of Christianity isn't to get a group of people who is not doing something to do
00:04:21.280 | something, right?
00:04:23.600 | That they're not doing something outside or inside and get them to behave differently.
00:04:29.400 | So they didn't wake up early in the morning, so they need to wake up.
00:04:32.240 | They didn't read the Bible, so then they need to read the Bible.
00:04:34.620 | The point of Christianity is not simply to change our behavior.
00:04:38.280 | So if all we do is go to the imperatives and say, "Just tell me what to do and I'm just
00:04:42.440 | going to do it," then you can completely miss the whole point of Christianity because the
00:04:47.480 | whole point of Christianity is to radically change our inner being so that we can see
00:04:52.160 | the glory of the gospel of Jesus Christ so that we can become worshipers.
00:04:58.160 | So if all we're doing is changing our behavior, we're not necessarily worshiping God.
00:05:03.840 | We're just acting differently.
00:05:06.040 | If making disciples is just getting people to act differently, all we're doing is institutionalizing
00:05:11.680 | people.
00:05:12.840 | This is our expectations in the church and this is how everybody behaves.
00:05:17.400 | But what our true desire is to—what God desires is to be worshiped.
00:05:22.400 | And worship, true worship has to happen when there's a transformation happening inside
00:05:26.320 | of us.
00:05:27.440 | And that's why the indicatives of who Jesus is is to show us his glory.
00:05:33.320 | So the reason why theology is important is theology basically is a study of God.
00:05:38.680 | Literally, it's a study of God.
00:05:41.000 | And so the study of God causes us to see a greater glimpse of his glory and the more
00:05:45.600 | we dig, a greater glory is revealed to us in his work.
00:05:49.900 | And so when that glory is revealed, therefore, if you know this, this is how you ought to
00:05:55.560 | behave.
00:05:56.920 | So you cannot have the imperative without the indicatives.
00:05:59.440 | You cannot have the indicatives without the imperatives.
00:06:01.240 | And that's why almost all the letters in the New Testament is written in that pattern.
00:06:06.880 | Book of Romans, 16 chapters, first 11 chapters are the indicatives.
00:06:10.900 | This is the gospel.
00:06:11.900 | This is what he has done.
00:06:13.300 | This is who we have become.
00:06:14.680 | This is the hope that we have.
00:06:16.200 | And therefore, in view of this mercy, this gospel, we ought to live our lives as a pleasing,
00:06:22.640 | as living sacrifice to God.
00:06:24.640 | It wasn't that long when we started the book of Ephesians, we have three chapters
00:06:28.760 | about his election, his predestination, and how he saved us, why he saved us, his purpose,
00:06:35.800 | his will.
00:06:36.800 | And then we get to chapter four, five, and six, and he says, "Therefore, live up to this
00:06:40.800 | calling that you have been given."
00:06:43.100 | So if you have a tendency to kind of like, "I don't want to get into these deep things
00:06:47.200 | and I just want to know what to do.
00:06:49.960 | Give me instructions one, two, three," then you're not really truly worshiping God.
00:06:55.300 | Or if you're learning all these indicatives and you know, you know, especially if you've
00:06:58.560 | been in the church for a long time, you know so much and yet you do so little.
00:07:05.160 | And you completely missed the point of Christianity.
00:07:09.480 | So that's why this "therefore" here is so important because we're transitioning from
00:07:13.760 | the previous indicatives.
00:07:15.040 | So this is what it's going to look like in the practical life of a Christian.
00:07:18.680 | This is how it ought to be practiced.
00:07:22.440 | If you look at Hebrews chapter 12, 1, and we're probably not going to even make it out
00:07:26.700 | of here today, okay?
00:07:28.360 | Hebrews chapter 12, 1, it says, "Therefore, since all of this, since the supremacy of
00:07:33.320 | Christ has been established for you, therefore, since we have such great a cloud of witnesses,
00:07:38.240 | these people who've gone before us as an example, let us lay aside every encumbrance of sin
00:07:43.560 | so that so easily entangles us and let us run with endurance the race that is set before
00:07:49.320 | us."
00:07:51.380 | In the English, when you read it, there's a bunch of imperatives here, right?
00:07:56.920 | Consider to let us, let us put aside every encumbrance and let us put aside the sin.
00:08:03.600 | Let us run.
00:08:04.800 | Let us fix our eyes on Jesus.
00:08:06.360 | So there's a lot of imperatives here.
00:08:08.060 | But in the Greek, there's only one imperative in the Greek.
00:08:11.360 | So it doesn't pop out in the English.
00:08:12.920 | In English, it sounds like there's a lot of instructions going on.
00:08:15.840 | But the only imperative in these three verses is let us run.
00:08:21.220 | Let us run.
00:08:22.220 | And so what that means is everything else that he says here are supporting, supporting
00:08:27.800 | ideas.
00:08:28.800 | How do we run this race with endurance, right?
00:08:31.840 | And so that's what we're going to be focusing on today and tomorrow and possibly the week
00:08:35.700 | after that.
00:08:37.460 | Let us run.
00:08:38.500 | Since you know all of this, if you truly believe that Christ is supreme over everything that
00:08:45.180 | we are tempted by, everything else in this world, if that's the case, therefore, let
00:08:51.140 | us run this race with endurance, the race that is set before us.
00:08:55.180 | So there are four things that I want to highlight and I outlined it this way.
00:09:00.780 | First, to look forward.
00:09:03.620 | Look forward.
00:09:04.620 | Second, to look back.
00:09:07.260 | Third, to look within.
00:09:11.020 | And fourth, to look up.
00:09:15.300 | Usually I don't come up with these clever outlines.
00:09:18.600 | So this is a lot of work.
00:09:19.600 | So I was like, "Oh, I like this.
00:09:21.180 | I stuck it."
00:09:22.180 | So even if it doesn't fit well, let's just go with it, okay?
00:09:26.600 | So the first instruction in running with endurance, he says to look forward, meaning to look at
00:09:32.460 | the goal.
00:09:33.460 | The final prize that God did not set us here just to start the race.
00:09:41.580 | We started this race in order so that we can finish this race.
00:09:46.580 | You know, in 1968 in Mexico City, there was a marathon that took place and all the winners
00:09:54.340 | already came in and so many hours went by.
00:09:57.000 | So they already had the ceremony to award the gold medal, the silver medal, and the
00:10:01.940 | bronze medal.
00:10:03.000 | And as they were wrapping up the ceremony, there was this one man that came into the
00:10:07.500 | stadium by himself, John Stephan Akwari from Tanzania.
00:10:11.940 | And it was a strange sight because even the ceremony was all done.
00:10:19.460 | So if you didn't know the context, you'd say, "Well, this guy is stubborn."
00:10:24.500 | You know, clearly, I mean, it must be embarrassing for him to run so late.
00:10:30.500 | Because after everybody was done, he was just kind of limping into the stadium.
00:10:34.380 | But what happened to him is about midway through the run, this man from Tanzania basically
00:10:40.860 | had a very bad fall.
00:10:43.420 | He bruised his shoulder, his head on the ground, and then he actually dislocated his knee.
00:10:49.620 | And so he didn't know if he was going to be able to run, but he was so determined, he
00:10:53.220 | began to limp.
00:10:54.220 | And this is a true story.
00:10:55.220 | He began to limp, and he limped the other about 12, 13 miles.
00:11:01.260 | And so that's why it took him so many hours to get in.
00:11:03.300 | And as he was limping in, the people knew what had happened to him.
00:11:07.460 | And just the fact that he finished, they gave him a standing ovation.
00:11:12.180 | And he's known as the greatest last place finisher in Olympic history.
00:11:17.100 | And that's why we talk about him today, even though this happened in 1968.
00:11:21.180 | So after all the things were over, they came and asked him, an interviewer said, "Why
00:11:26.860 | did you go through that excruciating pain of running 13 hours with a dislocated knee?"
00:11:34.460 | And his answer was this, "My country did not send me 5,000 miles to start the race.
00:11:41.620 | They sent me 5,000 miles to finish it."
00:11:45.980 | Our journey with God wasn't simply mental.
00:11:50.740 | He justified us, and then we just kind of trickle in, into the finish line.
00:11:56.900 | The reason why he writes this, the whole letter, is to get people who are drifting.
00:12:03.100 | They were drifting because they were simply neglecting their faith.
00:12:07.340 | You know, backsliding doesn't happen because you wake up one day and say, "You know what?
00:12:10.900 | I don't know if I believe in God anymore."
00:12:13.380 | It doesn't happen that way.
00:12:14.540 | Most people, it doesn't happen that way.
00:12:16.820 | Most people, it just happens simply out of neglect.
00:12:20.940 | You get busy in life, you start making a little bit of money, you travel a little bit, you
00:12:27.820 | buy this and you buy that, and after a while, your priorities kind of mixed up.
00:12:33.300 | Have children and just busyness of life, concerns of this world.
00:12:37.940 | And so we start to neglect our walk with God.
00:12:41.380 | And that's why the whole letter, he doesn't say, "Don't reject Jesus.
00:12:45.180 | Don't deny Jesus."
00:12:46.340 | He says, "Do not neglect."
00:12:48.260 | How can we escape if we neglect such a great salvation?
00:12:51.620 | And he keeps saying, warns us about drifting.
00:12:57.060 | Drifting requires no effort.
00:12:59.780 | Just sit there, relax, enjoy the ocean.
00:13:04.660 | Just breathe in the fresh air and you just start drifting.
00:13:10.340 | And so he, the whole letter is written to people who are just kind of drifting because
00:13:14.100 | it was becoming hard to be Christian.
00:13:17.540 | Our natural tendency is when we're young, we're ideological and say, "We're going to
00:13:22.220 | turn the world for Jesus Christ."
00:13:23.700 | And we're in college surrounded by friends who are encouraging us, almost shaming us
00:13:28.940 | for not walking with Christ.
00:13:31.540 | If you're in college and you're not doing well in your faith, you get persecuted.
00:13:37.820 | Where we are, "What?
00:13:39.620 | You didn't do this.
00:13:40.620 | You didn't do that."
00:13:41.620 | And all of a sudden you graduate and then you get a job and you don't have that pressure
00:13:45.660 | anymore.
00:13:46.660 | You don't have that accountability.
00:13:47.660 | In fact, you know, where in college you were like 80%, you had this accountability.
00:13:52.380 | Now it's the other way.
00:13:53.380 | Now majority of the time with non-Christians where it's difficult to live your faith.
00:13:58.740 | And then you struggle for a little bit when you're young and then a lot of people by the
00:14:02.260 | time they're in their mid-20s has kind of accepted that.
00:14:05.180 | That's just the way it is.
00:14:07.100 | And so you do a little bit of church and a little bit of this, a little bit of that.
00:14:10.020 | And by the time you're in your 30s, your heart has hardened.
00:14:13.100 | You've heard everything.
00:14:14.660 | And so you created a Christianity that doesn't really look anything like the Bible.
00:14:19.500 | And you just assume, "Well, maybe that was true of them.
00:14:21.660 | Maybe this is true of a few elect.
00:14:23.380 | Maybe it's just for the apostles, but not for everybody."
00:14:26.980 | And so we end up prioritizing other things in this life, knowing full well that it's
00:14:31.860 | temporary.
00:14:32.860 | Knowing full well we're just sojourners passing by, but we just simply out of neglect.
00:14:40.260 | And when we neglect our salvation, we end up compromising.
00:14:45.540 | So when trials come, temptations come, when we are tested, it's much easier to compromise
00:14:50.820 | when we've been neglecting our faith, when we haven't been striving after the things
00:14:53.820 | of God.
00:14:54.820 | And then when we are in a compromised state, apostasy isn't far away.
00:15:00.840 | So backsliding doesn't happen one day you wake up.
00:15:03.640 | It just simply happens out of neglect.
00:15:05.620 | And that's what he was trying to say to the runners here, to the listeners, the recipients
00:15:11.520 | of this letter.
00:15:13.880 | That it's not enough that you started this race, you need to finish this race.
00:15:18.840 | God didn't justify you so that you can just fizzle out sometime five years, 10 years,
00:15:22.960 | 20 years later.
00:15:24.680 | We have a tendency, the older I get, the more I hear this.
00:15:28.400 | I was.
00:15:30.500 | We say that about our physical life.
00:15:32.480 | We also say that about our spiritual life.
00:15:35.420 | And it's very dangerous when you're 30 years old and you begin to say, "Oh, when I was
00:15:43.320 | in college."
00:15:44.320 | Oh, let the college kids do it.
00:15:47.400 | I'm so old at 30.
00:15:50.760 | You know what I mean?
00:15:51.760 | And then the 40 year olds hear that and it's like, "Oh my God, you're only 30 and you're
00:15:55.820 | saying that?
00:15:57.600 | I'm so old at 40."
00:16:01.900 | And then the 50 year olds will hear that and it's like, "Oh my gosh, you little infants.
00:16:07.680 | At 40 year old?"
00:16:09.600 | And I'm sure the 60 year olds don't even say anything because it is just so ridiculous.
00:16:17.620 | You know what ends up happening is physically we don't retire until we're in our 60s and
00:16:22.720 | possibly 70s.
00:16:24.800 | But so many people retire spiritually in their late 20s and early 30s.
00:16:31.440 | That this striving after God, this running with all our might, that's something you do
00:16:35.480 | when you're young.
00:16:36.480 | But as we get older, we have to raise kids, we have jobs, we have responsibilities.
00:16:43.640 | And so we just kind of have retired.
00:16:46.640 | You know, and then we just like, "Oh, it's great to see the younger ones living out their
00:16:50.280 | faith, but I'm old.
00:16:54.280 | I'm 30.
00:16:56.160 | I'm 40.
00:16:57.160 | I'm 50."
00:16:59.160 | See, God is calling us to finish this race, to finish what he started, to be justified,
00:17:06.760 | to be sanctified, and to ultimately be glorified.
00:17:10.760 | And that's why the word that is used here for this race is agonai, a marathon, not a
00:17:17.200 | sprint.
00:17:18.760 | Our natural inclination is to give attention to the sprinters.
00:17:23.160 | I mean, let me illustrate this.
00:17:27.360 | Who's the fastest runner in recent history?
00:17:30.680 | Record it.
00:17:34.360 | You all know.
00:17:35.360 | Usain Bolt, right?
00:17:36.360 | I don't know what his time is, but he's really fast.
00:17:42.360 | Fastest.
00:17:43.760 | So he become a celebrity.
00:17:45.960 | Everybody knows who he is.
00:17:46.960 | You don't have to be a track and field, like a connoisseur, I don't know what it is, like
00:17:52.880 | a fan of that to know, right?
00:17:55.920 | Because he's on television.
00:17:57.560 | He's in movies.
00:17:58.560 | He makes commercials because we naturally gravitate towards the sprinters.
00:18:03.320 | Who's the fastest marathon runner?
00:18:06.680 | Unless you're some weirdo who likes to run marathons, most of you, most of you probably
00:18:15.720 | don't know, right?
00:18:17.560 | We don't gravitate toward marathon runners.
00:18:20.560 | The fastest recorded marathon runner is a guy named Eliud Kipchoge, which you're not
00:18:26.520 | going to remember and neither will I after today.
00:18:29.480 | His time was set in 2018 Berlin Marathon, and his fastest time recorded is two hours
00:18:36.180 | and one minute and 39 seconds.
00:18:40.160 | We don't keep track of that, or at least the record keepers do, but most people don't know
00:18:44.880 | because we naturally gravitate toward the sprinters.
00:18:49.440 | And even in our spiritual walk, we have a tendency to elevate people who are sprinters.
00:18:56.240 | They're gifted, they're talented, they have large churches, wrote great books, and they
00:19:00.600 | write great things, have great blogs, have more than a million followers on Facebook
00:19:04.720 | and TikTok and whatever.
00:19:08.120 | And so they're the sprinters.
00:19:11.240 | But the ones who are just chipping away, just being faithful in the background, they don't
00:19:15.600 | really get much press.
00:19:19.080 | And they're the ones who faithfully finish.
00:19:21.040 | A lot of people just kind of flash and then once they're done with the sprint, they're
00:19:26.440 | just out there, right?
00:19:27.800 | But the marathon runners have to agonize.
00:19:30.440 | They know agony.
00:19:32.320 | They struggle.
00:19:33.320 | And that's the word that is used here to describe a Christian walk.
00:19:36.680 | In other parts of the Bible, our spiritual life is described as a struggle, a strife,
00:19:42.920 | a wrestling, a boxing match, and even warfare.
00:19:48.360 | And we are often called soldiers.
00:19:52.960 | In modern day history with the church growth movement, we hear a lot of talk about the
00:19:58.780 | church needing to be a hospital.
00:20:01.680 | And that is not wrong, right?
00:20:03.880 | People are sick.
00:20:05.240 | And so people need healing.
00:20:07.680 | But I think the problem with that is a lot of people in our generation only see the church
00:20:12.600 | as a hospital, a place to be loved and be safe.
00:20:16.800 | But when we start talking about agonizing and struggling and striving and warfare, it
00:20:22.080 | almost sounds foreign.
00:20:25.200 | Even though the Bible clearly states, I mean, if you're talking about percentage, more of
00:20:31.000 | our spiritual life is described as agonizing, where we get the word agony.
00:20:37.760 | And we are challenged not only to simply sign up for the race, but to run as to win.
00:20:44.800 | In 1 Corinthians 9, 24 to 27, Paul says, "Do you not know that those who run in a race
00:20:49.680 | all run, but only one receives the prize?
00:20:52.180 | Run in such a way that you may win."
00:20:56.640 | Now think about the context of this, right?
00:20:59.260 | Why is Paul telling them to run in this way?
00:21:02.880 | Because the Corinthians got entangled with who's better, who's more spiritual.
00:21:08.560 | You know, I like Apostle Paul, I like Apollos, I like Peter, and then some is like, I like
00:21:15.920 | Jesus.
00:21:18.260 | So they were competing with each other, all kinds of chaos in the church, and they've
00:21:24.640 | taken their eyes off of where they were supposed to go.
00:21:27.240 | And so the whole letter is written to kind of encourage them and to rebuke them to get
00:21:31.560 | back on track.
00:21:33.320 | That you're just satisfied that you're on this journey, you signed up, and you're comparing
00:21:38.320 | your outfits.
00:21:40.540 | And that's why he's saying, everybody runs, but to run to win.
00:21:47.700 | You know, some people who just kind of get on into the race, sign up for the race, you
00:21:53.160 | know, but you can clearly tell that they're not there to really win.
00:21:57.240 | You know, they wear the wrong shoes, you know, maybe they got a coat on because it's cold,
00:22:04.160 | and they're talking and chatting with their friends while they're running.
00:22:07.160 | You know, they're high-fiving their friends, they're posing for pictures.
00:22:11.820 | You could tell who's in this race to tell their friends that they ran the marathon,
00:22:17.320 | even though it took them four and a half days, right?
00:22:20.440 | Because they're not interested in the race itself.
00:22:23.060 | They're interested in the fact that they actually went.
00:22:27.820 | But they're not striving, right?
00:22:30.740 | But the ones who want to win, you know, they got the proper shoes on.
00:22:35.200 | Sometimes they won't even pick up a drink because they're afraid it's going to slow
00:22:37.680 | them down.
00:22:38.680 | They're not going to sit and like take pictures while they're running, because that few seconds
00:22:43.040 | matter because they're trying to win.
00:22:45.760 | And so Paul says, we all run the race, but he said, you need to run to win the race.
00:22:51.700 | Not just be satisfied that you are in the race.
00:22:54.880 | Verse 25, everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things.
00:23:00.440 | Self-control meaning everything is determined by this race.
00:23:06.400 | They practice this self-control by asking themselves, is this going to benefit me or
00:23:11.340 | not benefit me in this race?
00:23:13.920 | That's why they practice self-control.
00:23:15.680 | They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable.
00:23:21.820 | Even non-Christians pack up their bags and their young children and they'll go to a very
00:23:26.240 | difficult part of the world, living a very difficult life because they believe that that
00:23:32.260 | will give them the greatest success in this world.
00:23:35.680 | Maybe there's some business going on there.
00:23:37.600 | Maybe that's where you want to go because you'll get the greatest amount of money.
00:23:41.280 | Some people will live in Alaska, right?
00:23:44.200 | They'll live in Alaska because the pay is much better.
00:23:46.720 | So even the secular world will sacrifice many things and be disciplined to get an imperishable
00:23:53.560 | wreath.
00:23:54.560 | And so Paul is using that as saying, everybody practices this.
00:23:58.880 | How much more should we for what is imperishable?
00:24:01.720 | If they do it for perishable, we should do it for imperishable.
00:24:05.400 | Therefore I run in such a way as not without aim.
00:24:10.640 | Not without aim, meaning that there's no clear goal.
00:24:15.000 | That everything that we do is what makes me happy today.
00:24:19.680 | If it makes you happy, why is it so bad?
00:24:23.760 | Do you know that song?
00:24:26.000 | Don't tell me that song.
00:24:31.520 | But that's kind of like the mantra of our day.
00:24:33.080 | If it makes me happy, why is it so bad?
00:24:36.800 | I do it.
00:24:38.040 | I run in such a way not without aim.
00:24:39.880 | I box in such a way as not beating the air.
00:24:42.760 | Basically shadow boxing, right?
00:24:46.280 | Shadow boxing.
00:24:47.280 | Nobody's hitting you and you're not hitting anybody.
00:24:51.400 | And you don't need to train for shadow boxing.
00:24:53.820 | There's no danger of being knocked out.
00:24:57.600 | And there's no goal of knocking anybody else out.
00:24:59.880 | So you don't need to be trained.
00:25:02.700 | So when you're shadow boxing without aim, it doesn't matter if you pray.
00:25:07.780 | It doesn't matter because you're not trying to knock anybody out.
00:25:11.280 | You're not trying to accomplish anybody.
00:25:13.640 | All you have to say is, "I did it."
00:25:16.820 | If you have the number on your chest, that's enough.
00:25:18.960 | You're not trying to win.
00:25:21.120 | You just got in.
00:25:22.120 | So you're just shadow boxing, right?
00:25:25.400 | So if you do Bible study, you do Bible study because your church asks you to do Bible study.
00:25:29.640 | That's part of the covenant.
00:25:30.640 | So I just do it.
00:25:31.640 | So I put the number on.
00:25:32.640 | But you're just going through the motion.
00:25:33.640 | The Word of God, all it is is just information.
00:25:36.720 | So I do it and people get off my back.
00:25:40.600 | If I don't do it, there's no effect because I'm not necessarily using the Bible for any
00:25:46.720 | other purpose other than to show people that's what I'm doing.
00:25:50.880 | So if you're shadow boxing, it's enough to just go through the motion.
00:25:54.360 | If you're shadow boxing, it's enough to just attend church.
00:25:57.660 | If you're shadow boxing.
00:25:59.660 | But if you're committed to the struggle to win, shadow boxing is nothing.
00:26:05.720 | You're just playing.
00:26:08.000 | And that's what he's trying to tell the Corinthians.
00:26:11.240 | That you guys are just playing games.
00:26:14.040 | You're not necessarily wrestling.
00:26:16.940 | You're not engaging in spiritual battle.
00:26:18.280 | And that's part of the reason why prayer in our generation is so weak because we're just
00:26:23.840 | shadow boxing.
00:26:26.480 | If you are wrestling to bring non-Christians to Christ, no amount of strategy, no amount
00:26:33.680 | of reading books, no amount of learning, no amount of talent can change a man's heart.
00:26:40.720 | That's the work of the Holy Spirit.
00:26:43.520 | And it forces us to recognize that what God asks us to do is beyond us.
00:26:50.620 | So if you're not wrestling and there's no clear aim and just going through the motion,
00:26:57.240 | then if you just check off the box, right?
00:27:00.720 | Did it.
00:27:01.720 | Did quiet time.
00:27:02.720 | Did I pray?
00:27:03.720 | You know, they told me to pray five minutes.
00:27:04.720 | I prayed five minutes.
00:27:05.720 | I showed up to praise and prayer and I did the assignment.
00:27:08.840 | And that's enough.
00:27:11.440 | But when we are wrestling to win, that's where the struggle comes in.
00:27:17.360 | But again, like I said, the greatest struggle in our generation and where you and I live
00:27:23.440 | is that the normal, the normal average Christian behavior is shadow boxing.
00:27:30.320 | There's a lot of spiritual things that are happening.
00:27:33.600 | A lot of just boxing, not hitting anything.
00:27:37.240 | A lot of like form without substance.
00:27:44.760 | If you get too excited about your faith, one of the first things that you'll hear from
00:27:48.640 | people is relax.
00:27:51.640 | Relax.
00:27:53.160 | Relax.
00:27:54.680 | Why, you know?
00:27:59.000 | Why are you getting so uptight?
00:28:00.520 | Why are you like that?
00:28:01.520 | You know?
00:28:02.520 | It's like, God didn't call everybody.
00:28:05.520 | God's not saying that we need to be poor.
00:28:09.680 | God's not saying we need to do that.
00:28:11.720 | Now, where do we draw the line?
00:28:14.760 | And so we have all these things that we say to kind of calm everybody down so that we
00:28:20.120 | can kind of live a average life and just kind of coast along.
00:28:27.360 | And if you get beyond this, like, oh, he's a fanatic.
00:28:29.440 | He's a Jesus freak.
00:28:31.000 | And if you get really serious, why aren't you in ministry?
00:28:35.440 | You should be a missionary.
00:28:37.200 | So if you're passionate about God, right, and you're wrestling and struggling, you belong
00:28:42.520 | in ministry.
00:28:43.720 | The rest of us, we're just going to sit back and watch you.
00:28:46.120 | I'll give you a high five as you run by.
00:28:48.640 | See, that's shadow boxing.
00:28:51.360 | And that's what he's trying to say.
00:28:52.920 | He said, to run, therefore, considering the cloud of witnesses that have gone before us,
00:28:58.000 | let us run this race with endurance, to finish this race.
00:29:03.160 | In Amos chapter 6, verse 1, the greatest problem of the Israelites was not that they weren't
00:29:09.240 | taking their temple sacrifices seriously.
00:29:11.840 | In fact, during that period, right before the Assyrians came and took them into captivity,
00:29:17.440 | there were more sacrifices were given at that temple than probably any other time before
00:29:21.720 | that period.
00:29:23.880 | But the primary message of the prophets that God sent was that all that you're doing is
00:29:30.600 | shadow boxing.
00:29:32.920 | It's just fluff.
00:29:34.760 | There's no real worship going on.
00:29:36.800 | In Amos chapter 6, verse 1, it says, "Woe to those who are in ease in Zion."
00:29:42.080 | They're relaxing, right?
00:29:43.080 | And he's like, oh, Yahweh is my God.
00:29:48.600 | Clearly He's for us.
00:29:49.600 | He's a covenant people.
00:29:50.720 | And they were just ease in Zion.
00:29:53.840 | And those who feel secure in mountain of Samaria, meaning they relied on their topography, right?
00:30:01.560 | When the enemies come, we have this great mountain to fight on, and we can conquer all
00:30:05.480 | our enemies.
00:30:06.480 | Ease at Zion and feel secure at Mount Samaria.
00:30:10.760 | Again, in Amos chapter 6, 4 through 6, those who recline on beds of ivory and sprawl on
00:30:17.520 | their couches, beds of ivory, which you and I don't have, right?
00:30:24.120 | So we can't be guilty of that.
00:30:25.720 | But modern-day version of it would be your memory foam, right?
00:30:31.280 | Those who recline on your nice king-size memory foam and sprawl on your recliners and eat
00:30:39.080 | lambs from flock and calves from the midst of the stall, your Korean barbecues, who improvise
00:30:46.520 | to the sound of harp, your music.
00:30:49.700 | And like David has composed songs for themselves, who drink wine from the sacrificial bowls
00:30:55.200 | while they anoint themselves with finest oil, skincare.
00:30:59.360 | Now, is this saying that all of this is sin, that we can't sleep on bed?
00:31:05.520 | Now we've got to sleep on cement ground, right?
00:31:09.200 | Korean barbecue is from the devil, right?
00:31:14.080 | Skincare is from Satan.
00:31:16.680 | No, obviously that's not what he's saying.
00:31:19.440 | There are plenty of people who are very wealthy who did godly things with their finances.
00:31:24.960 | It's what he says after.
00:31:25.960 | He says, "Yet you have all of these great things that God gave you because he blessed
00:31:31.680 | you."
00:31:33.120 | God wasn't saying like, "All my children need to be poor and be suffering and can't have
00:31:36.960 | nice things."
00:31:37.960 | That's not what he's saying.
00:31:38.960 | He said, "I blessed you with all these things, yet they have not grieved over the ruin of
00:31:43.720 | Joseph."
00:31:46.320 | When it came to the things that really mattered, instead of seeing these good things as a blessing
00:31:52.400 | to use for God's glory, you just self-indulge and that's all it was.
00:31:58.360 | You use all the blessings, all the finances, all the things you have so that we can live
00:32:02.760 | nice and have nice things, and that was it.
00:32:05.200 | And when it came to lost souls who are going to be judged when God comes, you just kind
00:32:12.600 | of swept that under the rug.
00:32:15.200 | And that's why the judgment was coming, of their constant shadow boxing without really
00:32:21.680 | being in the fight.
00:32:24.080 | Again, that's what this "therefore" is.
00:32:27.340 | Everything that he said up to this point, "Therefore," knowing all of this that I've
00:32:32.320 | said, knowing all of this of who Jesus is, "Therefore, let us finish this race.
00:32:38.360 | Let's run this race with perseverance."
00:32:40.400 | He says the word for endurance is literally "hupomone," it means to submit.
00:32:46.920 | It means to place yourself, to bear yourself under pressure.
00:32:50.280 | That's what that means.
00:32:52.520 | And the reason why he says this to them is because they did well in the sprint.
00:32:59.560 | In fact, in the sprint, these guys were Usain Bolts.
00:33:03.620 | They got there fast and they were celebrating even their material goods being confiscated.
00:33:08.960 | People were going to jail and they're like, "Man, we're being persecuted for Christ."
00:33:12.600 | But then when they realized it was a marathon, they started slowly, started being discouraged.
00:33:17.560 | It's like, "Oh shoot, they're actually dying.
00:33:19.760 | Oh shoot.
00:33:21.320 | This is not, this is not relenting."
00:33:22.720 | You know, it wasn't like Joseph where he suffered and then at the end he was magnified
00:33:29.000 | and he used him for great things.
00:33:32.520 | They realized maybe they're Jeremiah, you know, that this suffering wasn't going to
00:33:37.320 | ever lend and maybe that is their purpose.
00:33:39.640 | And they started drifting out and that's why he says not only to run this race, to
00:33:43.960 | stay under.
00:33:46.080 | Because our natural tendency is when we're under pressure, either to change our circumstance
00:33:52.240 | or change our theology.
00:33:57.040 | So our immediate action is to change our circumstance.
00:33:59.760 | This pressure, I feel this pressure, right?
00:34:03.680 | We lived it with this tension between heaven, we're not there yet and we're saved.
00:34:08.920 | So we're kind of in this middle ground and because of that we feel pressure.
00:34:12.520 | We feel like we don't belong.
00:34:15.360 | So we're constantly reminded of that.
00:34:19.240 | And we're living nice but we feel people suffering.
00:34:22.760 | We know people who don't know Christ and we feel like we need to share the gospel with
00:34:25.880 | them but what if we do that?
00:34:28.080 | We're going to lose our job and we're living with this tension.
00:34:30.720 | So our natural tendency is change our circumstance, change our neighborhood, change our job because
00:34:39.560 | this is the pressure we don't want.
00:34:41.920 | Or we change our theology.
00:34:43.520 | Oh, that's not what God wants.
00:34:46.120 | It's because of these legalists.
00:34:47.920 | Oh, they're not interpreting the Bible correctly.
00:34:50.400 | Oh, that's his personality.
00:34:53.160 | That guy's always angry.
00:34:55.160 | And so we change our theology so we create a theology that accommodates this easy life.
00:35:03.800 | But the Bible says this pressure is normal because we're aliens and strangers.
00:35:09.760 | It's when we think that there is no pressure, there is no longer this struggle, that you've
00:35:15.800 | run this race and let the kids take care of it.
00:35:18.440 | And we're just kind of coasting along and then when you see the waves coming, we got
00:35:22.120 | to go back to shore.
00:35:25.200 | And yet the Bible constantly reminds us of this pressure that we are under.
00:35:33.160 | That is normal because we're aliens and strangers in this world, in a foreign land that is hostile
00:35:38.240 | to the message that you and I have embraced and loved.
00:35:42.880 | And we are actively sharing.
00:35:45.220 | So he says do not think it's strange when they don't accept you.
00:35:48.640 | Do not think it's strange when you don't belong, when you don't fit in.
00:35:53.480 | Do not think it's strange when you say things that are straight out of the Bible and they
00:35:57.640 | call you a hate monger.
00:36:01.000 | Do not think it's strange because we live in a fallen world that is hostile toward God.
00:36:04.760 | So those children who actively follow Christ are also going to face some sort of hostility.
00:36:10.380 | Do not think it's strange.
00:36:11.960 | Do not turn to the left or to the right.
00:36:15.200 | Do not turn to the left or to the right.
00:36:18.120 | That pressure that you feel as an alien and stranger in this world is supposed to be there.
00:36:25.240 | That's part of our sanctification.
00:36:27.860 | That's a part of a reminder that we don't belong.
00:36:31.920 | And our constant wrestling and tweaking and planning to have it better fit in this world
00:36:38.320 | is what's destroying the church.
00:36:41.740 | To make the church as palatable as possible so that the people who have committed to the
00:36:46.720 | pattern of this world can feel at home in the church is what's killing the church.
00:36:53.520 | This is a completely different kingdom with a completely different king.
00:36:57.960 | And our followers are supposed to be completely different.
00:37:01.680 | So this struggle, this agony, this wrestling match, this warfare that we are a part of,
00:37:09.240 | he says don't forget where we're headed.
00:37:11.560 | Don't forget the race that we're in, that we're in this struggle, we're in this battle.
00:37:16.560 | Let me get to at least number two, okay?
00:37:17.920 | I'm not going to get to number three.
00:37:21.720 | He says to consider as we fix our eyes on this path to look back, consider the cloud
00:37:29.600 | of witnesses that has gone before us.
00:37:32.560 | Not that they are looking at us, cheering us on.
00:37:34.880 | He said no, they've been set before us as examples for us to follow.
00:37:40.240 | Some of them endured much agony and God delivered them.
00:37:45.000 | And so they were all mentioned in chapter 11.
00:37:46.960 | And then some of them, no fanfare, no great hoopla, no names being written, just died
00:37:55.600 | in agony, just faithfully following Christ.
00:37:59.400 | And whether they saw any glory, whether they died in a difficult situation, they all finished
00:38:06.640 | the race.
00:38:08.560 | And that's exactly what Paul says at the end of his life.
00:38:11.900 | He says he finished the race.
00:38:14.840 | He doesn't give a compliment, I planted a church here and I did this and I wrote so
00:38:18.680 | many passages.
00:38:21.080 | He doesn't mention any of that.
00:38:22.080 | At the end of his life and he's summarizing his life, he says my life is being poured
00:38:26.800 | out as a drink offering, meaning I'm going to die.
00:38:29.460 | And all he says is I have finished the race.
00:38:33.480 | I finished it.
00:38:34.480 | You know, I think every single one of us, if I asked you what's your favorite character
00:38:38.640 | in the Bible and you would probably name somebody, right?
00:38:41.640 | For whatever the reason, right?
00:38:45.080 | Me like automatically I would say Moses is one of those guys, right?
00:38:50.760 | And it's not because of his great leadership.
00:38:53.800 | Moses is a guy that always stands up to me as an encouragement too because this guy came
00:38:57.840 | into ministry kicking and screaming, you know?
00:39:01.200 | And I told you last week, Jeremiah is another guy, you know, because he's agonizing.
00:39:05.800 | I mean, if you're too happy one day and you want to balance some of that, read Lamentations,
00:39:13.600 | right?
00:39:14.720 | Or Jeremiah.
00:39:17.380 | Or even Psalms, right?
00:39:18.880 | I mean, they'll level you out, right?
00:39:21.640 | And then you're going to have to go to Philippines to bring you back up.
00:39:25.680 | Jeremiah is a guy who's just like, oh, he's like, why?
00:39:30.840 | And then even Apostle Paul.
00:39:32.760 | You know, the letter that I gravitate toward is 2 Peter and 2 Timothy.
00:39:38.800 | I mean, man, 2 Peter is hard to read, you know?
00:39:43.000 | I mean, he risked his life to bring the gospel to these people and they're saying, because
00:39:47.080 | they didn't like what he had to say, it's like, that guy's not an apostle, right?
00:39:51.240 | I mean, his letters are strong, but his appearance is not impressive, right?
00:39:56.720 | He's not the best speaker.
00:39:58.240 | And they were criticizing him.
00:40:00.040 | He's like defending himself.
00:40:01.360 | I am an apostle.
00:40:02.360 | And the only reason why he's defending himself is because he's trying to tell them to listen.
00:40:08.080 | There's grave danger if you don't listen.
00:40:10.840 | And then Apostle Paul, the last letter he writes, he basically tells Timothy, don't
00:40:15.720 | let this happen to you.
00:40:17.680 | All these guys are falling out.
00:40:19.480 | They love the world more than God, and so they went back.
00:40:22.240 | Don't let this happen to you, right?
00:40:24.120 | He said, you preach, even if they don't want to listen, in season and out of season.
00:40:28.660 | You keep preaching it, even if they don't want to listen.
00:40:31.640 | Even if your life becomes hard, you preach.
00:40:34.440 | Don't turn.
00:40:35.440 | You preach.
00:40:36.440 | And that was the last letter.
00:40:38.640 | You know, I've always gravitated toward these people, and only recently I realized, like,
00:40:45.720 | huh, they all have similar character.
00:40:48.680 | They're all people who are reluctant, but remain faithful.
00:40:54.320 | And I find great encouragement in them, not because of the great things that they've done,
00:40:59.480 | but because they're just faithful.
00:41:01.840 | They had their eyes on the prize, and they just made it to the end.
00:41:07.160 | Read the book of Psalms.
00:41:08.920 | Two-thirds of it is complaining.
00:41:12.600 | Why?
00:41:13.600 | Why?
00:41:14.600 | Two-thirds.
00:41:15.600 | We gravitate toward Psalm 23.
00:41:18.600 | The Lord is my shepherd.
00:41:20.720 | I shall not be in want.
00:41:22.120 | He leads me beside quiet water.
00:41:24.040 | I mean, we put it on, you know, plaques, and we quote it.
00:41:30.760 | Two-thirds.
00:41:31.760 | Two-thirds of Psalms is, "Why?
00:41:35.560 | Why do you let the wicked prosper?
00:41:39.040 | When are you going to answer my prayers?
00:41:40.640 | How long?"
00:41:42.840 | Two-thirds.
00:41:44.120 | My enemies are all around me.
00:41:47.280 | Where can I go to escape?
00:41:52.760 | It's because that's the human experience.
00:41:57.240 | You and I live in a fallen world.
00:41:59.560 | The God of this age is Satan.
00:42:03.440 | He doesn't like God's children.
00:42:06.200 | And so living in a fallen world is naturally, there's going to be struggles.
00:42:12.480 | There's struggles when you're young, and there's struggles that come when you're old.
00:42:18.640 | There's a struggle because you're single, and then there's struggles that come because
00:42:23.960 | you're married.
00:42:26.560 | There's a kind of struggle that comes because you don't have children, and there's a kind
00:42:31.320 | of struggle that comes because you have children.
00:42:35.280 | There's a struggle that you have from being unemployed, and there's a kind of struggle
00:42:39.880 | that comes from being employed.
00:42:43.320 | When you're working, when you're retired, every stage of life, there's a struggle because
00:42:51.000 | we haven't made it to the end.
00:42:54.160 | The struggle isn't just the first mile, or the second mile, or the eighth mile, or the
00:42:59.960 | twenty-fifth mile.
00:43:02.600 | Until we finish the line, finish and finish this race, the marathon isn't over.
00:43:07.960 | So until our life is over, there is no real rest.
00:43:12.480 | Our Sabbath is when we meet Christ.
00:43:14.920 | So until then, he says, "Agonai," struggle.
00:43:20.720 | Struggle to get to that rest.
00:43:23.720 | Look at the people that have gone before us as an example.
00:43:28.040 | You know, I mentioned all these people, and Martin Luther, and James Frazier, and Jim
00:43:31.520 | Elliot.
00:43:32.520 | These are people that made an impact in my life in reading the biography.
00:43:36.280 | But now as a bit older, I look back at my life and say, you know, probably outside of
00:43:43.520 | my immediate family, the guy who discipled me when I was in college, and he discipled
00:43:48.000 | me for about three years, probably made the biggest impact.
00:43:51.280 | And part of the reason why is because I was so hungry.
00:43:55.320 | And he just, he wasn't gifted, he wasn't necessarily, said something, I don't remember a single
00:43:59.940 | thing he said.
00:44:01.880 | I should have listened to him better, but it wasn't because of anything he said.
00:44:06.600 | It was just he chose to love me.
00:44:09.120 | And he dedicated himself to be there when I needed him.
00:44:12.860 | And that was enough for me.
00:44:14.280 | And anything that he did, I wanted to do.
00:44:18.520 | We have a tendency to put people on a pedestal that are far off.
00:44:23.000 | That's why we write books about, you know, Martin Luther.
00:44:25.400 | And every once in a while, I'll read, you know, stories of missionaries, like, oh, you
00:44:28.440 | know, like, Jim Elliot did this, and, you know, we had Amy Carmichael woke up at three
00:44:33.760 | in the morning and, and, you know, visited 50 villages and brought 10,000 people to Christ.
00:44:41.200 | And it's like challenging, but like, who does that?
00:44:44.720 | I don't know anybody who does that.
00:44:47.400 | Martin Luther, you know, like, we have a cult from him, it's like, oh, you know, when he
00:44:51.160 | was busy, he prayed four hours, but when he was really busy, he prayed seven hours.
00:44:55.280 | When did he study the Bible?
00:44:59.480 | When did he meet with people?
00:45:00.480 | Right?
00:45:01.480 | But we have a tendency to kind of highlight the good things from people from a distance
00:45:04.960 | and then say, well, these are cloud of witnesses that have gone before us.
00:45:08.940 | That's why all the dead people are perfect.
00:45:10.960 | You know, you go to funerals and, and no flawed people ever die.
00:45:17.760 | Only perfect people die.
00:45:19.080 | Because at the funeral, they're perfect, because we don't highlight their flaws.
00:45:24.100 | So we tend to appreciate people who are more farther away, because we highlight the good
00:45:28.840 | and nobody knows their weakness.
00:45:32.600 | But the greatest cloud of witnesses in our lives are usually very, very flawed people
00:45:37.320 | who are very, very close to us.
00:45:40.980 | People that we know their flaws very well, inside and out.
00:45:46.000 | And they seem just like us.
00:45:47.800 | In fact, some things are worse than us.
00:45:51.840 | But they dedicated their life to help us, to love us, to persevere with us.
00:45:58.280 | And we don't usually appreciate them until they're gone.
00:46:01.840 | And it isn't until we're way older, we look back and say, well, it's like, you know, you
00:46:06.680 | don't see people dying on their deathbed.
00:46:08.280 | It's like Martin Luther.
00:46:10.980 | He made the biggest impact in my life.
00:46:13.880 | Or Moses, you know, like all the hard years of my life, Moses, like really was the one
00:46:20.920 | who changed my life.
00:46:22.480 | Usually at the end of our lives, we mention somebody obscure that nobody else would know,
00:46:26.880 | just only you would know.
00:46:29.320 | Somebody that was close to you, flawed.
00:46:32.120 | Maybe you did a lot of complaining about them.
00:46:35.920 | But they left the biggest impact.
00:46:37.640 | You know, the older I get, the more I realize how much of my dad's faith is in me.
00:46:47.800 | I never got to tell him that.
00:46:49.680 | You know, when I get to heaven, I'm sure, you know, I'll tell him.
00:46:52.880 | But when I got saved, I got saved in a charismatic group.
00:46:57.760 | My dad was a Presbyterian conservative all his life.
00:47:00.280 | So I've never seen like, you know, outpouring and like emotions.
00:47:04.280 | And it was just preach the Bible and sing the hymns.
00:47:07.360 | And to me, it was dead because I didn't understand it.
00:47:11.500 | So I got saved in a charismatic church where we were, you know, praying and, you know,
00:47:16.080 | and singing out loud and casting out demons.
00:47:19.120 | And we're doing all this stuff.
00:47:20.120 | And my dad's faith seemed very foreign to me, very legalistic.
00:47:25.200 | There's no power in that.
00:47:27.480 | And then after I got a little bit older, I became a Baptist.
00:47:31.800 | He's a Presbyterian, you know.
00:47:34.080 | So I didn't agree with him about baptism.
00:47:36.760 | So I never talked deeply about theology.
00:47:40.320 | My dad was a seminary professor.
00:47:41.640 | He taught Greek and Hebrew, wrote a book on church history.
00:47:44.960 | And I couldn't read it because it was in Korean.
00:47:48.400 | Neither did I really want to because I felt like there was such a distance between his
00:47:53.000 | faith and mine.
00:47:56.600 | It wasn't until I got older, I started realizing how much of his day to day, day to day, the
00:48:05.360 | way he lived, who he was, made an impact on my life.
00:48:08.680 | You know, like I'm 53.
00:48:12.780 | I don't remember too well when he was 30 because obviously I was too young.
00:48:16.920 | And I kind of vaguely remember him in his 40s because I was a teenager at the time.
00:48:22.360 | But I was in my 20s and probably already married, you know, by the time he was my age around
00:48:28.360 | that time.
00:48:29.360 | So I remember very vividly how I felt, the conversations I've had with the brief things
00:48:34.240 | that he said here and there and how much I hated him telling me about ministry.
00:48:38.560 | I hated it because he would because he saw how I was struggling and he would always give
00:48:44.840 | me ministry advice and I didn't want to hear it.
00:48:48.680 | I didn't want to hear it because I was already struggling.
00:48:53.040 | And I didn't want my dad pointing out like do this and do that.
00:48:55.920 | I don't agree with you.
00:48:58.560 | I'm not a Presbyterian.
00:49:00.000 | My faith doesn't look anything like yours.
00:49:01.920 | I don't read the books that you do and I don't want it.
00:49:04.680 | So anything he said, it was just kind of like, okay, okay, you know, I'm trying to be respectful,
00:49:08.560 | but I just couldn't hear it.
00:49:09.560 | I had no ears to hear.
00:49:12.440 | So when I thought about my faith, I always thought about these great people and the people
00:49:16.720 | that made an impact, even though it was only for two, three years in my life.
00:49:20.880 | But the older I get, I hear myself saying, my dad said this.
00:49:26.760 | My dad said this.
00:49:28.600 | My dad did this.
00:49:31.360 | Subconsciously.
00:49:33.000 | I'm not even trying to dig.
00:49:35.400 | It's just the things that is the most prevalent in my head are the things that my dad said
00:49:40.680 | and sometimes in passing that it just kind of came in.
00:49:45.760 | And I look back in my life and realizing the greatest cloud of witness was in my house,
00:49:51.920 | which I didn't know at that time.
00:49:55.440 | And I remember very vividly, specifically this one time, and I was already a pastor,
00:49:59.880 | oh, not a pastor, but I was a committed Christian, really grown in my faith.
00:50:05.000 | And I went to my dad's church and there was a lot of turmoil at the church and people
00:50:09.400 | at the church were trying to vote my dad out.
00:50:12.480 | They weren't happy with something.
00:50:15.280 | And so something happened and I was in the Wednesday service and one of the elders stood
00:50:19.440 | up after the sermon and tried to physically attack my dad.
00:50:23.040 | It was a small room.
00:50:24.040 | It wasn't a big room, probably no more than about 25 people in the room.
00:50:28.720 | And I was sitting between my dad and that elder.
00:50:31.840 | And when he got up and he started to go toward my dad, all I could think of was if I was
00:50:37.760 | not a Christian, that's all I was thinking about.
00:50:41.400 | If I wasn't a Christian, I would put him in an arm bar, you know, and this is before MMA,
00:50:49.320 | right?
00:50:50.320 | I would have twisted his legs and did something and it's like, how dare you, you know?
00:50:55.720 | Because I was a Christian, I was trying to hold back.
00:50:58.560 | Like I don't want to, as offended as I was, I didn't want to, I didn't want to offend
00:51:03.000 | God.
00:51:04.240 | So I kind of held my tongue and just sat there and watched this and burning in anger, but
00:51:08.240 | didn't open my mouth.
00:51:09.560 | And my dad did nothing.
00:51:11.600 | You know, my dad's character, you know, I can't remember any time that he actually lost
00:51:18.160 | his temper.
00:51:19.160 | He's just a very meek person.
00:51:23.160 | But I remember specifically that Sunday, after that Wednesday, he came to Sunday worship
00:51:28.920 | and he was preaching a sermon in front of the same elder, in front of a room filled
00:51:33.960 | with people who are trying to get him out of the church.
00:51:38.040 | I don't remember anything that he said.
00:51:41.120 | All I remember was sitting in there angry at the people in the church and the whole
00:51:46.160 | time looking at my dad thinking, how does he do this?
00:51:51.080 | How does he do this week after week?
00:51:54.880 | Like what, what, like what do you need to have to do what he's doing and just not quit?
00:52:03.120 | And I realized at the end, and again, all of this was just kind of deep in my memory
00:52:08.080 | until recently, I remember that so vividly and the greatest impact, the greatest cloud
00:52:16.120 | of witness was somebody that I never even thanked.
00:52:21.720 | Oh man, I didn't lose it in the first service.
00:52:32.720 | Sorry.
00:52:33.720 | Give me a second.
00:52:38.720 | James, a bond servant of God and the Lord Jesus Christ to the 12 tribes who are dispersed
00:52:59.960 | abroad greeting.
00:53:00.960 | All right, I'm back.
00:53:01.960 | God had left a cloud of witnesses.
00:53:11.440 | I'm pretty sure in your life, flawed people, probably very flawed people and in their flawed
00:53:24.320 | state, they did their best to reflect the love of God.
00:53:30.760 | They weren't there by mistake.
00:53:34.320 | I pray that as we do our best to finish this race, think of the cloud of witnesses that
00:53:42.000 | had gone before us.
00:53:49.800 | Knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance and let endurance have its perfect
00:53:53.880 | result.
00:53:54.880 | Actually, the verse actually fits so that you may be perfect and complete lacking in
00:54:00.080 | nothing.
00:54:02.520 | So that one day when this race is finished, we can thank them ourselves.
00:54:15.200 | Let's take a few minutes to, to really come before the Lord and pray.
00:54:30.840 | And I know that to bigger or smaller degree that the struggle is constant.
00:54:41.600 | Let's come before the Lord and ask for strength to remain under the struggle and persevere
00:54:48.160 | so that we may also finish the race along with those who have gone before us.
00:54:53.160 | Let's take some time to pray as our worship team leads us.
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