back to index2014/11/16 Pastor Alex Han's Testimony
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I'm 30 years old and I've been a pastor at Berean Community Church for five years. 00:00:16.400 |
I was born into a non-Christian family and so I didn't really have any background with 00:00:24.120 |
It wasn't until my youngest sister was born that my mom was introduced to the church. 00:00:30.800 |
There was this Korean grandmother that helped around the house because my mom had to deal 00:00:38.800 |
She was a Christian and so she invited my mom out to church. 00:00:44.000 |
From there, that's when my Sunday mornings became occupied with church. 00:00:52.440 |
From there, that's basically when I was being exposed to the Bible and to the true Jesus. 00:00:57.520 |
I mean there was definitely streaks of disobedience. 00:00:59.200 |
I remember during high school just getting really involved with whether it be cussing 00:01:05.240 |
I mean these were sins that were pretty heavily embedded into my mind and into my heart during 00:01:13.480 |
During that whole time period, I was just wrestling with sin and wrestling with whether 00:01:19.000 |
I mean living out my life as if I was cheapening God's grace basically. 00:01:30.040 |
I would say there were moments in my testimony where significant changes occurred. 00:01:37.680 |
I think the first significant change occurred in the summer of 1997. 00:01:46.100 |
When the message was being preached, he was making it very clear that Jesus was the King 00:01:50.840 |
of Kings and Lord of Lords and that he died for his people. 00:01:55.600 |
I just thought in my head that in most kingdoms, the king is usually the last person to die. 00:02:04.680 |
It was at that retreat where I gave my life to Christ. 00:02:09.600 |
I think the next significant moment was probably in college. 00:02:14.420 |
That's when I first started coming to Berean. 00:02:18.760 |
It was during that time in my small group that I was reading the Bible more consistently. 00:02:26.800 |
Romans chapter 3 talks about how there is no one good, not even one. 00:02:33.880 |
I remember reading that verse and I was just utterly broken over not only my sins but the 00:02:42.360 |
It really just gave my world a spin to see that truth and to finally have a better understanding 00:02:49.120 |
of the faith that I have, to see the measure in which God has gone in order to redeem a 00:03:04.280 |
Oftentimes when these mistakes are made, there's guilt that occurs afterwards because you knew 00:03:12.280 |
The question is, how do you handle this kind of guilt? 00:03:18.240 |
But there has to be some sort of reconciliation with that guilt. 00:03:26.480 |
In my life, that guilt was really eating at my heart and it really caused me to wonder 00:03:36.400 |
It wasn't until I heard the gospel of Jesus Christ, hearing the good news of what Jesus 00:03:41.440 |
has done for all the mistakes I've made, all the sins that I've committed, to understand 00:03:47.120 |
that that guilt that I had will be lifted from my shoulders if I submit and seek His 00:04:02.000 |
Even though I'm not perfect and as I continue to live my life, I know I'm going to make 00:04:06.040 |
more mistakes, but I trust that my Lord will forgive. 00:04:10.960 |
That when I confess my mistakes to Him, that He will say, "All is forgiven. 00:04:16.680 |
That's something that was really key for me and continues to shape me now as a follower